How Are You Feeling Right Now? #2

I’m annoyed.

I'm still feeling pretty down. Had an ok talk with friend and that cheered me up a bit, but I can't escape this horrid sadness that has taken me. I feel like a lot of why I'm sad is because I've been so spoiled with attention from friend lately, it feels like I need more. I also desperately want to cuddle someone for real, so while virtual cuddles from friend are nice, it's not quite the same and my cats can't pet me back. But then I get in this nasty spiral of how I will never find someone who can be good for me or me good for them and just ugh...

I feel so pathetic writing that too. But hey, you're all strangers who don't know me, so it's ok, right? If you judge I don't really care. I just hope friend doesn't think I'm as pathetic as I do.

Having ups and downs. Thursday was a good day. Friday a very bad day. Today started bad, hopefully get better soon.

Empowered!

Feeling a bit irritated because of something friend did, but it wasn't something he could help, so I'm just a bit miffed at the situation and not mad at him. Overall I'm feeling much better today though. Still not happy, just okay I'd say.

I feel very tired. I have to work today and I'm not in a very good mood. I feel anxiety. I also feel lots of frustration. I also start to feel some envy and hate. So not really positive emotions.

Trying to force myself through this day. We'll see what's it brings.

I’m feeling in pain. My leg was off and on yesterday. Mostly off though. Today it has been constant pain. I’ll step a certain way and it will hurt like hell. Someone told me pulled muscles can turn into blood clots. Is that true? I’ve been trying to deal with it myself since Wednesday.

I'm feeling pretty good. I was exhausted because of too little sleep and got in an afternoon nap. Now, I feel better, but I didn't get anything done today, and it's almost time to cook dinner.

I'm a bit tired and sore tonight, but otherwise feeling decent.

frustrated with people, they never see the truth.

I feel like I don't want to sleep. I want to stay in this moment, tired, just before going to sleep. That moment where I'm too tired and about to go away from this world to my dreams. Safe in my bed without any judgment. It's the nice way to stay in bed, in contrast to when it's almost afternoon and you're still not woken up.

Today was pretty good, so I'm feeling good. I managed to get myself into the game I've been playing and made some really good progress in places I've been slacking and found some nice people along the way who were very grateful when I was able to solve something that they had been struggling with. I also had a really fun chat with my friend. x3 Unfortunately, the other activites meant I did not vacuum like I was going to... Oh well.

I feel so sleepy

I ate a bunch of Godiva, and now I feel like I’m going to pass out. Yet I claim I don’t have diabetes.

Kinda irritated. Some jerk said he was going to report me for finishing the mission instead of staying for the extras. >:| I don't think he can actually get me in trouble for that, and I did say in the chat that I had to go (definitely was not rude to him), but it's like he didn't see that chat or something because he kept telling me to leave the extraction point (mission finish spot) and didn't consider that I needed to leave, I couldn't wait for him to do whatever this extra thing was.

Surprised, but not surprised. Wondering which yoga routine to do next...

Tired , lost..in a rut.

Not feeling great...
Too much heat !

Annoyed, saw a bunch of homophobic comments online earlier today.

Meh. Today wasn't very good, but it hasn't completely tanked my mood. Despite waking up at a good time and getting good hours of sleep, I must not have slept very well because I've been tired all day. On top of that, nothing really interesting happened, then when friend came on he was not in a good mood because his new job was hell yet again and he asked me not to be silly, which is like asking me to not be happy... So I had to just not talk to him even though I really wanted to and it's really bugging me that when he's in a bad mood I can't be silly. It's one of the few traits I think is good about myself, but apparently not...

Feeling very paranoid and frightened by the actions of a certain member on this site, won't say more because I want to give the admins a chance to work it out, and besides, one doesn't air their dirty laundry in public. But this is how I'm feeling, and it's not pleasant as this is the one site I can come to for support (I have zero MH/MI support irl beyond a PA who prescribes meds).

Rather than rant here, I will only say that I'm trying to handle it appropriately and I've already PM'd Moogie. The idea that Moogie will see it terrifies me for some reason, like I'm the one who did something wrong, even though I was the one who got baited and flamed in the past.

But to hell with it. Let those who aren't a "throwaway" deal with it, right?

EDIT: Shadow, this is for you. Being silly is one of the only ways we have to laugh at the absolute absurdity of existence. Why do you think humans evolved the ability to be silly? What evolutionary purpose does laughter serve? Even the philosophical giants Calvin & Hobbes wrestled with this:

Tired, wore out, and confused. My little 4 pound male chihuahua has had bronchitis for about 10 days, he is on his 2nd round of antibiotics, I have had to sleep sitting up so his bronchitis don't turn into pneumonia. So I haven't gotten good sleep in awhile. My I had to pack up my MIL's things from our spare room, and clean it up for my FIL to stay awhile, we took him back to my SIL's yesterday. The MH place I go to has changed things where I only see a T once every 3 or 4 months, and only for about 15 mins, bc I am on Medicare, so I just about don't have a T, and won't have unless something happends, like me having a break down, and this doesn't make any sense to me?????

I'm this side of functioning. Tired but relaxed at the same time.

Perturbed. Why can't she have an original idea of her own? This copy-cat behaviour is infuriating and on occasion downright triggering and hurtful.

Even more paranoid about staff/admins/moderators now...