How are you feeling right now #3

I am just hanging in there today, and me and the cooler weather are having issues.

Always laughing and smiling, while on the inside I seethe at the desperate loneliness burning inside.

So...just another day, I guess.

I’m sort of stressed out.

Feeling pretty low, burned out and got very little done today. One good thing is I went to goodwill and got a few things including a self help book that I haven't seen before, "I Can Make You Happy" by Paul McKenna. It seems to be designed to give you tools you can put to work right away and I really need a jumpstart, so hoping it will help.

frightened by the future

a bit of a stomach ache because of accessive overeating

overeating's really bad today..

unmotivated. down. I want to cry. What is wrong with me!!?
perk - I have some hope..I have a Dr apt tomorrow for my genesight.

I feel like I'm a waste of space.

And the wheel turns again... The numbness just gets worst for me some days other days my s'n smiles and I'm a bit better

I feel the same.

I’m feeling a bit like I’m getting a cold.

Really depressed.I was so depressed today that I cancelled my therapy session.I knew the therapist would ask me what I was depressed about and if I said the past she'd just say the past is over,you can't change it,there is no point being depressed.If I say I don't know there is no reason to be depressed she will say it is up to you what you do do you want to waste time being depressed or focus on now.It makes me angry cos the pressure is on to make progress and I can't be ****ed.I want space to be unhappy all the therapist cares is that therapy can't go on forever,she was away for three weeks and I missed one and cancelled twice.I don't care,I don't feel my issues have been addressed deeply enough and I am still getting triggers and flashbacks.I am unhappy and doing what I can to manage it,like I cancelled therapy and went to the cinema.I really enjoyed the film.Right this minute I feel annoyed thinking about therapy and whether to carry on.The therapist referred me to the hospital,arts on prescription scheme ,over a month ago and they haven't even contacted me yet.

I felt a little out of it today but I've been pretty good..
My car did something crazy this morning and I am going to have to take it in.. but I didn't get upset or frantic today.. I was "me" and calm about it all.
I've never been "here" in my life-- in the sense I am taking the car in tomorrow, with only little concern... it's unfamiliar to me.

despite eating off food yesterday, and having a bad tummy ache yesterday and also for much of the morning, it now seems to be going away

so I am glad for that

Not feeling the best right now. My fiance’s Bad mood this morning rubbed off on me.. it was sobering, when I woke up really excited about this concert tonight. I’m still not in a great mood.. we’re on our way now.

I have a chest cold and I am extremely depressed,I feel lousy!

I’m feeling meh. I just saw The Conners. I don’t think they handled Roseanne’s death very well. The whole thing was just depressing and I think it very well could be cancelled by tomorrow morning. It has happened before with TV shows.

Sore jaw, knee hurts, tired and want to just sleep 8-9 hours per night instead of the 6-6.5 hrs I’ve been sleeping past few months of more. Fall and winter make me want to hibernate.

I'm doing better in the last two days than I have felt in months. How long it will last, though, is anyone's guess. I don't normally get more than four truly, really, genuinely good days, a month.

Doing ok except my sleep schedule is kind of messed up. I have a hard time falling asleep at night and then oversleep.

I feel kinda sick to my stomach. That’s what I get though for drinking a 64oz bottle of Snapple half and half in one afternoon. Only 50 calories for the entire bottle though. Probably Still wasn’t a good idea.

My knee still sore, but walked outside anyway, had to the weather was sunny and nice warm fall day. Jaw pain is better and seems correlated to stress and exercise and chilling out seem to help.

My arm hurts and I feel sad, depressed, lonely, afraid.

I have low self esteem and body image/confidence issues. It feels impossible and overwhelming to trust a man and let them in for a relationship. I know it will hurt to love again, I also know how to overcome these issues, but I won't move on.I stay stuck,because I fear getting hurt and I am frightened to experience my own personal power. Same reason why I avoid writing or art work, I fear failure and I fear success. Being in limbo is preferable.

Anxiety’s gone but I feel very tired.

Disappointed, sad, and unsure what to do next. Depressed. I think I'm going to try to work out and see if it helps at all.