How are you feeling right now #3

Tired. I am kind of burning myself out with working my main job, studying and creating a side business.

I'm in the middle of a stinker of a meltdown

embarrassed.

I can't believe I posted something in the wrong section..

I never ever ever post something in the wrong section. I feel so bad

I feel ok very anxious though waiting for a phone call

I am good but content and annoyed... i am happy but sad, it's difficult to explain ... I get these days..
I am worried but confident

Sleep deprived. Crabby. Worried about work. I want to take my meds early. My anxiety is through the roof and I don’t know why.

As lonely and spiteful as ever.

Tired.. and sad.

I’m exhausted and I don’t know why. I can barely stay awake. I can’t tell if I really am just not getting enough sleep or if I’m getting sick or what. I thought I slept better last night. Not great but still better then the night before.

I'm feeling very upset that 11 people were murdered at the "Tree of Life" synagogue today by a s.head antisemite man.

Feeling lazy

I am feeling at peace.

it's still quite early on a sunday morning so it is very quiet outside- not even much traffic.

figuring I'm going to have some of my coke, (yes, this early), get changed, then get some breakfast

I woke up crying.
Thinking about how there's so much evidence that i am not valued by others.

Deleting what I wrote..

it's just my path I guess and just deal with it.

It's hurtful what humans do to each other but perhaps this again is just another lesson of me valuing myself...
At least I am strong, even others see that in me.

I'm quite happy and content 😊😘

It’s getting closer to work, so the worse I’m feeling.

Utterly apathetic. My life has zero meaning, and the suggestion that I look within myself for meaning is ridiculous and trite because I am hollow and feel nothing but desperate ennui and despondency.

I'm just better at hiding it some days.

Sore back Ughhhhh

Pissed off i was awoken by someone playing their game on their speakers very loud and then laughing like it’s hilarious.

Feeling pretty good right now, I am bored a bit but that's ok.

I have been a little productive, did the vacuuming of the dwelling.. and I actually remembered to turn on the dishwasher before I left this morning, dishes are put away..
I wasn't terribly productive at work but I did finish up checking my yearly logs, there were only two I forgot to put entries for.. I am glad I have my odd memory and some emails

I’m feeling decent.

I'm not feeling very good. Almost on the verge of crying. I want everything fixed. I'm tired but not willing to sleep. Overwhelmed by how my life is changing. If I had to guess, I'm going into a hypomanic state.

Sorry things are so bad for you Kitracer.I hope they improve soon.
I feel a bit despondent today,so many issues are going on with me,the latest being tendonitis I think causing me numbness in my arms and legs.
Weight is gaining not losing,so feel bad about that and blood sugars are too high still,no progress there.But thing is therapy is going great and I feel in a good place even though my situation currently can feel like the same old **** with no progress on solving loneliness and having my own people in my life.I oscillate between feeling what's the point why not just give up and die and feeling oh good I am getting somewhere.I am not completely lost and down and out,I have my home and some family left and whatever crap I have had in my life I have always felt it has had meaning,so I feel good about that and I no longer feel hollow inside,I am a woman of substance and do have future plans and ambitions,slowly but surely my life will get better,hopefully.

So happy and content. Blessed and grateful.

I feel like panicking.

I am annoyed .. but I'll be ok.
I just probably should stay away from people, but yet I am plannin on going to a get together tonight oh life, the entangle web I weave