How are you feeling right now #4

I just don’t feel good.

Tired but ok

I feel like crap.

I have a ton of existential dread right now.

I`m feeling like I don`t want to take my meds and go to bed right now.

Anxious this morning

I feel awful and drained of all energy.The shopping got delivered at 10am today and I still haven't packed it away and it's 4pm.The sink is piled high with dirty dishes and I have to get that done definitely today,it has been in the sink for over a week.Those two jobs I definitely have to do before bed.And tomorrow is the last sunny day before rain,I am hoping to get the grass cut at the front of the house and the back,I have to cos it will rain friday and if I leave it it will be too long and harder to cut.I am going to find it hard going cos I feel like I have a very small amount of energy,I feel so weak all the time!I pray to God that he gives me the strength tomorrow to get that chore done.

I felt used and manipulated by the catalogue company and got angry and frustrated with them.I owe hundreds and have been paying since christmas minimum amount each month for five months which amounts to £150 and I still owe the same amount,that £150 I have paid is all interest.Which made me mad cos last time I cleared the debt I asked them to shut down my account so I wouldn't get a debt up again and they didn't,they left it to manipulate me into ordering again and I did and got into debt again.They actually had my credit limit at £3000.00,I mean I don't owe that much but last time I did owe £1200.00.I was scared it would get that high again so I rang up today and blasted them for not closing the account when I asked them to and got them to lower my credit limit to £600.I actually owe £593.I have worked out a way to pay it off by November.I can't cope I need to not owe then I will have more money to buy decent food and travel.

So freaking done with work, friends, family, life. This is not a suicide threat, not gonna hurt myself or anything like that. Promise. But I do really want to call in sick from life for a few days, curl up under a blanket and hide from the world.

Not feeling well today.

I feel much better cos I did the washing up and put it away,cleaned the kitchen,mopped the floor,wash dirty cans for the recycling bin and packed the food shop away.That made me feel useful and not the useless lump that I felt I was before.Fingers crossed that I can get the grass cut front and back,do the weeding tomorrow and do the laundry and clean the bathroom.Those are the jobs I want to get done tomorrow,cos its going to rain on Friday!

I feel pretty good right now unfortunately.

I feel like I ate a ton of food at a buffet when I actually ate less than a thousand calories total today.

Very anxious this morning i have a therapy app this afternoon with a new t at the same clinic as my old t retired last week. I am so worried she has judged me even before i walk in to the waiting room

Anxious this afternoon

Not feeling great today. Not my best.

Hitting the gym on my lunch hour was the best idea. Swimming in post-workout endorphins right now.

Not getting much work done though...

I’m not feeling the greatest. I’ve had this migraine since 10 last night and just the usual stomach cramps that come and go but no period BS that I’ve been dealing with for a few days now.

Tired and concerned about my daughter and my cat.

A bit tired

I still feel like crap. I didn’t drink a lot of water last night but I I used the bathroom so many times and I didn’t replace the water and then I also sweated through my shirt today which I never do. I’ve also forgotten to drink water along with not feeling like drinking water because I’ve been very sick to my stomach. I think I might have messed up my body a bit.

Mixed emotions

Feeling a little better than yesterday

I feel sad and upset and lonely,I don't have any friends or people in my life to care about me.It feels like I am invisible and sometimes it is hard to know that I exist.I can't feel loved if there is nobody there to love me.I kinda get desperate and it's hard to know what to do to solve this problem.I have rejected a lot of people in my life and I am paying for that now,now nobody wants to know me either.

Sad and angry.

Mixed emotions this morning