How are you feeling right now #4

I have a crush on someone who lives on the other side of the country, so I feel ecstatic and sad at the same time.

But mostly happy.

Anxious this afternoon

I am tired and unhappy,I want to have more energy and more funds to do the things I like with.
I wish I had more energy tonight.I feel so alone and lonely.

ANGRY!

My best friend's husband is the organiser of a large fundraising dinner for Mental Health. I told her I was aware of the function and what a crying shame it was that those with mental health issues basically cannot attend. When asked why I pointed out that as many people with mental illness do not work they either rely on a limited assistance or had no income at all. She told me the event was a gala evening and that if you could not afford to attend you didn't deserve to be there. I was stunned. I told her at the very least the function should have representation of the very faces it was so called supporting. I suggested that the (large mining) corporation could have made tickets available by donation or subsidy to the mentally ill. She seems to think such an idea ridiculous.

On another note, this corporation apparently raises big money but nowhere can I find any description of where that money goes. The website goes on at length about supporting initiatives for Anxiety and Depression. Well, having operated the local Anxiety and Depression Support Group in the very city the organisation operates out of I can tell you that the group saw not a dime of it. And the group was the only group in the community.

I feel tired, blah, and a little anxious about T tonight.

I feel good this morning

I feel good. Actually I haven't felt this good in a really, really long time.

Tired, I feel tired.

I was pleased and felt good cos I won £50 playing games on the lottery website.But the pleasure didn't last long and all night I have been feeling lonely and sad really.
I want to achieve my weight loss goals and I am failing so new start tomorrow and hopefully I can succeed.

Stressed and tired. I'm still struggling to see how I can actually do anything with my life, when all of my energy goes towards "maintenance".

Stressed about work. My job has been *terrible* this year. Very demotivating. I need to try to find something else, but I don't know what. It's overwhelming.

Worried that I'm going to annoy my neurofeedback practitioner too much, and he'll tell me that he can't help anymore. I'm still feeling like... it's got to work. There aren't many other options for me... and I've had some improvements, it's just hard to keep them. Fell back into depression this weekend, and no clue why or what happened.

Grateful for my piano teacher, who spent most of my lesson chatting with me about life today.

Tired. Almost halfway through the week, at least.

Kinda creeped out by this thing I saw on TV. My brother though had a meltdown from it and I got talked to about “not showing things like that” again when he’s in the room.

Very anxious this morning

Very stressed this morning

I feel hungry but when I go to eat my lunch I can’t actually eat anything and then I instantly go back to being hungry. So I’m probably just about to get an anxiety attack which can sometimes weirdly mask itself as hunger.

Kind of bored

Yeah it’s definitely anxiety and not hunger. My anxiety is through the roof right now and I need a Xanax and not food. This is how I keep my weight down. 😏

I feel good,I hung around the independent cafe and Starbucks at the cinema complex all day and night,I saw a film and hung out at the pub too,I felt good distracting myself from home and being out among people.I feel good right now,it is that time of night when tv is finished and the home is quiet and I am online.I can watch catch up tv and go on facebook etc just generally entertain myself peacefully until it is time for bed.I decided not to go out again apart from visit my mum on Saturday.I won't go anywhere that costs money anyway and the money I save I will have a haircut on Tuesday.My hair has gotten too long and I fancy a different hairstyle.I am happy and content for now so am feeling good,I am always lonely though that is a ongoing state that I am always in wanting a special someone as a partner has been so for a long time now and I don't think the loneliness will go away until I find someone for companionship.

I'm feeling kind of frustrated because I am stuck in the airport. I tried to get an earlier flight home, but I got cheap tickets economy basic, which means I can't exchange them.

I am feeling God's love for me,I know he loves me and has planned the best path for me,I have to follow his guidance and trust him.He won't let me down.

I feel like a mess. I had turned the light off to my room and then gone to open the door which was closed and I couldn’t find the door knob for for a good 40 seconds 1 minute. I wasn’t full on panicking but I was close. I kept thinking “is this normal?” The light I had turned off was on the other side of the room. It was weird.

Very anxious this morning

I’m feeling ok.

I feel better this afternoon

Tired and kind of anxious.

I’m feeling a lot better after a Xanax my regular night meds and a lobster dinner. But I think anyone would feel better after all that stuff.