How Are You Feeling Right Now? #5

Stressed and out of sync with myself.

My brother is in jail. I try to be emotionally supportive, but he's an addict, so I've created some boundaries (i.e. I sent him supplies to write letters, but won't send food). Now, I'm getting collect calls from the jail.

But, he's not saying his name, so the message is... "This is a collect call from [pause], an inmate at the ABC County Jail." - I don't accept, but he's calling 3-4 times a day, and I'm hearing it on my answering machine.

I don't know why he's calling, but to accept the calls, I have to set up an account and deposit money for it to bill from. No clue if you get a refund when he leaves, if you have money left over.

I've got a ton of stress in my own life right now, and have no desire to pay collect call charges. If he wants to talk to me, he needs to get sober and stay out of his jail. I'm happy to write letters to him back and forth, but not collect calls. (If he finds a way to call that doesn't charge me, like at Christmas they all had 5 minutes of free phone time, I'm happy to talk to him.)

So, I'm frustrated. I actually turned off my answering machine over the weekend, but have it back on now, b/c I'm hoping to get a call back from the place that does my QEEG (brain scans), since I was trying to get in to see them (and I don't have caller ID).

I'm just frustrated and already super stressed about my own stuff. I've been off for a couple weeks, but feel like I've gotten NOTHING accomplished in that time. Trying to replace my car is the big big thing.

Ugh. I'm trying so hard to figure out how to make my life run in a way that doesn't make me feel crappy all the time, and this just... spikes my stress. I kind of hate my life, and can't figure out how to make it better. Ugh ugh ugh!

Depressed and wanting to SH

I am very depressed,anxious and worried about how the new extreme right tory government will affect the disabled this coming year.
There is a rise of homelessness among disabled people.No one seems to care.
Foodbanks are now number 10,000 while in 2010 there was no need for them.
Child poverty is rising.
People just don't care about anyone but themselves.

Mixed emotions this afternoon

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Originally Posted by guilloche Stressed and out of sync with myself. My brother is in jail. I try to be emotionally supportive, but he's an addict, so I've created some boundaries (i.e. I sent him supplies to write letters, but won't send food). Now, I'm getting collect calls from the jail. But, he's not saying his name, so the message is... "This is a collect call from [pause], an inmate at the ABC County Jail." - I don't accept, but he's calling 3-4 times a day, and I'm hearing it on my answering machine. I don't know why he's calling, but to accept the calls, I have to set up an account and deposit money for it to bill from. No clue if you get a refund when he leaves, if you have money left over. I've got a ton of stress in my own life right now, and have no desire to pay collect call charges. If he wants to talk to me, he needs to get sober and stay out of his jail. I'm happy to write letters to him back and forth, but not collect calls. (If he finds a way to call that doesn't charge me, like at Christmas they all had 5 minutes of free phone time, I'm happy to talk to him.) So, I'm frustrated. I actually turned off my answering machine over the weekend, but have it back on now, b/c I'm hoping to get a call back from the place that does my QEEG (brain scans), since I was trying to get in to see them (and I don't have caller ID). I'm just frustrated and already super stressed about my own stuff. I've been off for a couple weeks, but feel like I've gotten NOTHING accomplished in that time. Trying to replace my car is the big big thing. Ugh. I'm trying so hard to figure out how to make my life run in a way that doesn't make me feel crappy all the time, and this just... spikes my stress. I kind of hate my life, and can't figure out how to make it better. Ugh ugh ugh!

I'm so sorry! All of that sounds extremely burdensome. My sister was an addict...there is nothing easy about having a sibling who is addicted.

I hope things ease up for you.

Mixed bag. I'm seeing my therapist for the first time in 11 days (I usually see her twice/week). So I'm glad to see her, but I guess I need to let her know that I'm stopping the Zyprexa. I've had it beyond the beyonds with side effects. So of course, my T will alert my pdoc, meaning Dr. W. will be *****y to me when I go in to see her on Friday.

I feel a bit better, I am for now at home, warm ,cosy got the heating on, covered with blankets and got the cat next
to me for company. I am not struggling financially yet, but the future is not certainly secure.
I have got to try and stay positive, haven't I?

Thanks, BethRags... and good luck with your T appointment (and pdoc). Sounds stressful, but at the same time, I hope they respect your experiences with the side effects and decision to discontinue the Zyprexa! Good luck.

I feel ok right now.

Emotional eating on me right now. So I’m eating a fish sandwich with some grapefruit juice.

I can’t tell exactly what’s going on. I’m not sure if I have a sore throat or just swallowed some spit or food the wrong way but my throat and sinuses are really bothering me tonight and it’s keeping me up. I know I had a sore throat on Sunday but I was feeling better yesterday.

I feel good this morning

Very glad to have New Year's Day off work tomorrow! These last two days at work have been harrowing.

With my fingers. I just now was feeling my wrist for a pulse & I saw it was my fingers doing it.

Feeling sleepy after having fallen asleep while reading my book.

Honestly
Bad, i don't know what i'm doing here, I made a chaos
I can't really believe what's happening
My life stopped two years ago

Very tired today.

Not good about myself. My family hates me. All I did wrong was have emotional issues.

Tired and depressed. Worn out.

Stuffed to the gills from eating out but good.

Very angry that someone belittled me then tried to tell me what to do. While I may act haughty sometimes when I'm trying to help someone, I NEVER tell them what to do with their lives. That is insulting and disrespectful.

Like I have a sinus infection. I’m having trouble sleeping. At least I was able to get up 20 minutes before New Years to watch it on TV.

I am sorry this happened while you were trying to help someone. I have not found you haughty in the least. On the contrary, I find you kind, caring, insightful and very helpful. And I know you weren't looking for complements, but there you go.

I feel good this morning

Still feeling a little tired, worn out, and ineffective.

I've been on vacation, but haven't gotten much done (including relaxing!). I go back to work next week, but my job makes me want to cry. The anticipatory depression is starting to creep in and crush me.

I feel very motivated to change my life - but often completely lost as to how to do that.