Maybe in another life
I could find you there
Pulled away before your time
I can't deal it's so unfair

And it feels
And it feels like
Heaven's so far away
And it feels
Yeah it feels like
The world has grown cold
Now that you've gone away

Leaving flowers on your grave
Show that I still care
But black roses and Hail Mary's
Can't bring back what's taken from me
I reach to the sky
And call out your name
And if I could trade
I would

And it feels
And it feels like
Heaven's so far away
And it stings
Yeah it stings now
The world is so cold
Now that you've gone away

The Offspring

Timmy Boy... you're already missed. Love you.

Ry

[nothemama8]

Ohhhh Ryan I know the hurt, when I lost TJ I felt I would never get over it. Just remember the memories
Angie

I didn't need this kick in the gut. I was already down.

[nothemama8]

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Angie

[vacantangel]

Oh Ry, sweetie, I'm so sorry for your incredible loss. I can't even imagine the pain you're going through right now. Know that you're not alone. I'm always with you sweet, sweet friend of mine. Love you always. I wish I could be there IRL and hold you and let you cry on my shoulder. Hugs, Ry, hugs.

((((((((((((((((( Ry ))))))))))))))

Not you hun, the phone call this morning. I was already down last night. Now I feel like pond scum. Not you at all.

Ry

[nothemama8]

I understand know thanks
Angie

Pat, thanks. I should clarify, Timmy Boy was a friend from home. He started using again and OD'd last night. My best friend called me this morning to tell me. Needless to say, work was awful

Ry

NP angie. I'm sorry I wasn't clear.

[nothemama8]

{*{*{*{*Ryan*}*}*}*}

Ryan, i'm so sorry.....angie and i didn't understand........big hugs....pat

[jmo531]

Ryan,

I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your friend. I have lost three friends in the last 10 years. One OD'd, one got shot in DC while trying to buy drugs and the other was killed in a horrible car accident. I went to high school with these people. These are highschool buddys of mine and to know that they are no longer here really hurts. One comforting thing is that they are no longer suffering. I know that each of these friends I spoke of battled their demons for years and eventually it was too much for them to handle. I miss them everyday but I know they are in a better place. With time it the pain will ease.
Again, I feel for your loss and please let me know if there is anything that I can do. Take good care of yourself friend. MUCH LOVE ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

[Stjiyo69]

We are ALL here for you, Ryan. There is nothing any of us wouldnt do for you....I hope you know that. I also hope you know that if things get too bad...Im not that far from you....get to me.

The damn irony in this is Timmy was the one who helped ME get clean. Why didn't he call me? I'd have helped him. He had to have known that, he just had to have.

[Stjiyo69]

Don't beat yourself up over things that we will never know the answers to, Ryan. Sometimes we just get so lost in our own stuff that no matter how much we know that we can reach out to those that care for us....it isnt an option. He knew you were there. Just have faith in that. Don't YOU get so lost in yourself right now that YOU dont reach out, ok?

Ryan, we will never know why people didn't call or come over when they are feeling down....it has happened to me. One of my best friends and I still think of reasons why he should have called me.......but now, you have the opportunity to reach out to his friends and family and I know how supportive you can be.....Don't beat yourself up over this....xoxox pat

Thanks Pat. The thing is that I'm not beating myself up over it... I'm hurt and mad as hell. And I guess I'm wrong for that but I don't care. It's how I feel.

Ry

[Stjiyo69]

Your feelings are never wrong, Ryan. Denying them is whats wrong. Its ok to be angry and upset. Just know that there are people around you that are there for you...no matter what.

So sorry Ryan,... for your loss. Offspring says it very well.
I hope knowing how much we all care for you will help you in this difficult and confusing time.

take care,

Mandy

[SweetSunshine]

Ry~
You know what we talked about last night. You know its ok to feel what you do , whether it be anger, sadness, hurt,and yes even love for Timmy Boy. YOUR feelings are never wrong. or any less because of Timmy not calling you and letting you know what was going on. He was just in his own world deep in sadness and sorrow. Mourning the little boy who got hurt so much. You saw his pain .You know what he had to live thru. He did his best for you to get you better . He loved you . I hope Timmy is in a better place now. And someday you will get to see him again. He is probably up there looking down on you feeling bad you are going thru this , but think of where he is now , He is feeling loved and cherished . What better way to imagine him now? In time you pain will subside and know that you will always have fond memories of him . I know you wont forget them. He is in your heart forever. Right where he should be.

I am always here for you hun. You know I am only a phone call away. You always have a shoulder to lean on.

Love ya~
Bethy

((((((((((Silver))))))))))

Amazingly enough I did manage to stay safe. Thanks for all your support.

Ry

((((((((((Angel))))))))))

Thanks again for helping me last night. You were SOOO there for me and you have no idea how much I appreciate that. Much love.

Ry

((((((((((Julia))))))))))

What can I say, you've always been there for me. I sure am a big fan of yours.

Ry

((((((((((Mandy))))))))))

You ain't kidding about The Offspring saying it well. Have you ever heard the song? Pure agony in his voice. Thanks for being there for me.

Ry

((((((((((Kate))))))))))

Thanks sweetie. Thanks so much.

Ry