[lonely and scared]

i am only 18 yrs old but have lost 6 people already in my family. i dont have a big family as i have only ever known my dads side of the family never met my mums side. i lost my 2 half brothers when i was 2 and 3. the next to go was my grandad when i was 4, i then lost my grandmother when i was 7. at the age of 10 i lost my only uncle i have. then when i was 16 yrs old i lost the most important person my dad, i miss him terribly.
but after i lost my dad i have found it really hard to cope with it all, but ever since he passed away i have also lost my mum and twin brother in a sense as they just dont seem to be around as much and are worried about themselves all the time and never have time to be a family anymore. and this really hurts.
sorry fot the little rant but i needed to get it out

[Rose3]

Sorry that some of the people in your life have left. We keep meeting people, making friends too. They come and they go. Some stay in our lives. Others move away. Do we ever know for sure which ones are going to stay? Keep making friends.

[downunderthesea]

your statement about them not having time to be a family. I completely understand. I have been fighting also to get the only members left in our family also to stay together. I have had to be the one to schedule family holiday and make sure we continue to have those moment because they are so meaningful. you might have to be the one to bring your family closer.

[madisgram]

glad you are talking about it, l'nscared. it does help to get the pain/sadness out. so sorry about your losses. i have had a lot too as has my son. sometimes, when i'm alone and thinking about my father i just talk with him like he was sitting in a chair across from me. not meaning i'm delusional, lol, but for some reason it helps. who knows, maybe the gone can hear? if nothing else it helps me feel better. our fathers, for many of us, were very special. i'm grateful for that too.

[lonely and scared]

i do something very similar whereby i ever go to his final resting place or i am in my room i will talk with him and tell him all that is going on. i also will talk to him about my problems, this help me because i find it hard to tell people my problems so by talking to him just helps to get of my chest

[forever mom 1968]

I lost in the last 5 years family members, important ones like, aunt, uncle, mother, and many neighbors and friends. It left me in shock and scared, unable to go on because it looked like everyone I cared for was gone. I even lost a very beloved dog at the same time. I thought how could I go on anymore. Many family members who were close during the illness of these relatives are now not calling me or getting in touch. So I too feel I have lost even them. I guess this is life. We have to try to go on and remember better days of the past. I know I feel lost now and miss them. I cry often and keep saying why all of this so close in time? Before I could get over one another was gone. For the longest time I felt so insecure not knowing what was coming next. I feel your pain and understand how lonely it can be. Keep posting because I know someone will have the right answer for you soon.