cried so hard

I cried so hard last night (finally getting in touch with it for real)

that I could hardly breathe.

My nose was so stopped up that I had to make myself stop crying just so I could breath right.

I think this grief is so great that it's like having a too-large rock trying to come out of me thru my eyes.

My husband held me thru it.

think my sinus trouble is from the grief---been chronic since my aunt died.

Hope my dr can rule out anything else.

Billi

(((billi leli)))

ty sabrina.

I am also having heart papitations.

May call my dr., but don't want to appear foolish if its' nothing.

Billi

The important thing is to take of you right now. If your heart palpitations are causing you concern, don't hesitate to contact your doctor. Sending you strengthening thoughts.

ty.

I have tried relaxation and breathing adn tha'ts helping.

I also got a massage last night. (part of my self-care plan)

If they get any worse or continue, I will call my dr.

ty for your thoughts.

Billi

dear Billi,, i'm a firm believer that our emotions affect our body, and, tho it doesn't sound very loving, i'm glad you are finally getting to let the grief out~,, i am on my way to a similar grieving, i hope it doesn't last very long, since it is coinciding with the bottom of my depressive cycle too. i do envy you a little, having some one to hold you, and getting a massage. but you got me to thinking, there are ways i can comfort myself,, thanks for opening up this thread,,, and i hope you feel much better soon~ Gus

((billi leli)) - sometimes it's okay to have a good cry...it helps release a good deal of pain. But Gus mentions a good point, that it can take a toll on our bodies. There's a fine line between healthy grieving and destructive grieving.

Your Aunt must have been a special lady to leave such a lasting impression on you. Maybe when you're feeling stronger you could create a scrapbook in honor of your aunt...with pictures, things she liked to do and special times you shared. This activity will make you cry but it will also remind you of the good times and get you to focus on the beautiful person she was.

I suspect she wouldn't want you to spend too much time crying for her. As time passes I pray your grieving will slowly be replaced with all the fond memories and love you have for your Aunt. Be kind to yourself, the way your Aunt would be kind to you.

ty everyone.

I am letting it out slowly and safely.

B.

Please do call your doctor. The stress of grieving can put a terrible strain on the body, and the doctor might have something you can use temporarily to keep you healthier than not.

I fully understand the not being able to breathe. I cried last night for my friend who just passed, and between the sinus and the sorrow, I truly just couldn't get my breath.

wish I could, jd.

She doesn't want to deal with me until I have seen the ear nose and throat specialist. However I am concerned about the palpitations. But I don't want to irritate her by coming in over grief.

ty,

Billi

Probably not, but if tears come, I don't want to stuff them anymore. They will make me sick.

If I let it out slowly, it will probably not be bad for me.

Grief is not on a timetable!

Billi