Home Menu

Menu


Reply
Thread Tools Display Modes
  #26  
Old Mar 29, 2006, 12:46 PM
Larry_Hoover's Avatar
Larry_Hoover Larry_Hoover is offline
Veteran Member
 
Member Since: Sep 2004
Location: Ontario
Posts: 471
I'm pretty amazed at one thing that's happening. It's the generalized sucking of energy. There is a black hole in place of my mother's heart. Sometimes.

I grieve her passing in stages. I think that's what I'm doing, anyway.

If all I get out of this is tired (ignoring the tears, for a moment), then it is the best I can have. I think so.

She has responded to our attention. She looks forward to meeting with the community care assessment nurse (I think). She said she needed to think about it, but I really think she wants the help, and the human contact. She just can't look too eager.

It's hard to maintain martyr status when you're accepting help that decreases the pain of being a martyr. It remains to be seen just what twist(s) will be put on things. Just exactly how she will reinforce her martyrdom.....as I continue to cut the strings that bind us together.

I am grateful for the opportunity to simply type this, today.

{{{{{{{{{{{{Lar}}}}}}}}}}}}

That's for the little guy. The child within. I know how meaningful this is to him.

Lar

advertisement
  #27  
Old Mar 29, 2006, 12:46 PM
Larry_Hoover's Avatar
Larry_Hoover Larry_Hoover is offline
Veteran Member
 
Member Since: Sep 2004
Location: Ontario
Posts: 471
I'm pretty amazed at one thing that's happening. It's the generalized sucking of energy. There is a black hole in place of my mother's heart. Sometimes.

I grieve her passing in stages. I think that's what I'm doing, anyway.

If all I get out of this is tired (ignoring the tears, for a moment), then it is the best I can have. I think so.

She has responded to our attention. She looks forward to meeting with the community care assessment nurse (I think). She said she needed to think about it, but I really think she wants the help, and the human contact. She just can't look too eager.

It's hard to maintain martyr status when you're accepting help that decreases the pain of being a martyr. It remains to be seen just what twist(s) will be put on things. Just exactly how she will reinforce her martyrdom.....as I continue to cut the strings that bind us together.

I am grateful for the opportunity to simply type this, today.

{{{{{{{{{{{{Lar}}}}}}}}}}}}

That's for the little guy. The child within. I know how meaningful this is to him.

Lar
  #28  
Old Mar 29, 2006, 01:02 PM
dottie's Avatar
dottie dottie is offline
Grand Poohbah
 
Member Since: Jul 2005
Location: Ohio
Posts: 1,526
{{{{{{{{{{Larry}}}}}}}}}} I am sending good vibes in your direction! Not sure what's behind the door
__________________


dottie
  #29  
Old Mar 29, 2006, 01:02 PM
dottie's Avatar
dottie dottie is offline
Grand Poohbah
 
Member Since: Jul 2005
Location: Ohio
Posts: 1,526
{{{{{{{{{{Larry}}}}}}}}}} I am sending good vibes in your direction! Not sure what's behind the door
__________________


dottie
  #30  
Old Mar 29, 2006, 08:43 PM
lenjan's Avatar
lenjan lenjan is offline
Grand Magnate
Managing Editor, PC
 
Member Since: Apr 2004
Location: Milky Way galaxy
Posts: 4,572
{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Lar}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} Our mothers seem to be similar sorts. I commend you for being able to cut the ties that bind, even if bit by bit, and painfully. I still am too fearful of my mother, even though she is 77 years old and I'm bigger than her, and stronger, and smarter, to try to cut those ties.

You're doing hard work, both on yourself and for your mother. Please take some time to do something nice for yourself. I'm thinking of you.

Hugs,
Candy
__________________



  #31  
Old Mar 29, 2006, 08:43 PM
lenjan's Avatar
lenjan lenjan is offline
Grand Magnate
Managing Editor, PC
 
Member Since: Apr 2004
Location: Milky Way galaxy
Posts: 4,572
{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Lar}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} Our mothers seem to be similar sorts. I commend you for being able to cut the ties that bind, even if bit by bit, and painfully. I still am too fearful of my mother, even though she is 77 years old and I'm bigger than her, and stronger, and smarter, to try to cut those ties.

You're doing hard work, both on yourself and for your mother. Please take some time to do something nice for yourself. I'm thinking of you.

Hugs,
Candy
__________________



  #32  
Old Apr 23, 2006, 12:41 PM
Topher's Avatar
Topher Topher is offline
Grand Member
 
Member Since: Feb 2005
Posts: 769
I live this in my work every day Lar. It would be presumptuous of me to assume that I know what your mother is thinking, but you have to attempt to do your best to put yourselve into her shoes. I commend you for respecting her right to self-determination (social work-speak, but an intuitive concept nonetheless). Even after mental incapacitation most us us would want to have decisions made on our behalf made as if we ourselves were making them. This is the foundation principle of advancce directives (called substitute judgement). Has your mother executed a Power of Attorney for Health Care (if such a thing exists in Canada)?

I wish you both the best.
Topher
  #33  
Old Apr 24, 2006, 11:05 AM
Larry_Hoover's Avatar
Larry_Hoover Larry_Hoover is offline
Veteran Member
 
Member Since: Sep 2004
Location: Ontario
Posts: 471
Hey Toph. I didn't know you came 'round here.

When I originated this thread, I was afraid of entering her home only to discover her corpse. That was what I had to steel myself against. The rest, now that we know what's up, is just details.

Yes, we plan on obtaining a medical power of attorney. Separate financial power of attorney, as well. They're even more important for my father, as he already has periods of incompetency. I've got both parents to manage, but with the excellent support and collaboration of my sister. It was amazing, to have them both come onto the radar screen within days of each other. I had only just got my head around looking after my dad, when this other situation arose. They have no contact with each other, but they were married for 44 years. It's as if she somehow knew. The synchronicity is astounding.

Thanks for your comforting words. Much appreciated.

Lar
  #34  
Old Apr 24, 2006, 12:03 PM
cherybery's Avatar
cherybery cherybery is offline
Veteran Member
 
Member Since: Mar 2006
Location: Texas
Posts: 411
((((((((((((((Lar))))))))))))))))))
Just wanted to let you know your in my thoughts! My mother was very manipulative when she became ill. My brother and I used to be close until she started to tell him one thing then tell me another. Since her funeral we have not talked. But when I was a teen I was her caregiver and I ended up letting myself be drawn into her illness. I am so glad you have your sister and she has you for support. You need that! The one thing I really wish I would have done was seperate myself from her situation. It is very easy as children to get pulled in. Please tell yourself you have done everything in your power you can. Find comfort in that as well as in the support you receive from your sister.
HUGS
Cher
__________________
[b]If you can’t be a good example, then you’ll just have to be a horrible warning.[b]
-Catherine Aird
Not sure what's behind the door
  #35  
Old Apr 24, 2006, 12:46 PM
Topher's Avatar
Topher Topher is offline
Grand Member
 
Member Since: Feb 2005
Posts: 769
You have a long difficult journey ahead, my friend. Likely one in which your acts of support and kindness will largely go thankless and unappreciated, I'm afraid. You have to realize that each one of us could be rendered helpless and completely dependent on others in the blink of an eye, by some catastrophic illness or accidental injury. What you do for you parents, especially given your circumstances, is a supreme act of love for them, and if you think about it, for yourself. I respect you immensely for transcending your painful past to become the caregiver you evidently never had.
Topher
  #36  
Old Apr 24, 2006, 05:53 PM
Larry_Hoover's Avatar
Larry_Hoover Larry_Hoover is offline
Veteran Member
 
Member Since: Sep 2004
Location: Ontario
Posts: 471
Thank you, Toph. Your post was a gift. It opened one more door to mourning my childhood. As the sobs poured out of me, I knew those feelings represented the departure of that pain from my being. One less weight, gone, to be carried no longer.

Hugs,
Lar
  #37  
Old Apr 25, 2006, 08:43 AM
Guest
 
Posts: n/a
lar.......so glad to hear that you have been able to rid yourself of a little pain.thanks to topher......topher...you are awesome and lar.....you are a great man...
  #38  
Old Apr 25, 2006, 02:20 PM
Sabrina's Avatar
Sabrina Sabrina is offline
Wisest Elder Ever
 
Member Since: Feb 2006
Location: South Africa
Posts: 67,808
Yes, you are indeed a great man!!
__________________
Not sure what's behind the door

Crying isn't a sign of weakness. It's a sign of having tried too hard to be strong for too long.
Reply
Views: 1860

attentionThis is an old thread. You probably should not post your reply to it, as the original poster is unlikely to see it.



Similar Threads
Thread Thread Starter Forum Replies Last Post
If my T came to my door, I would think.... sunrise Psychotherapy 11 May 26, 2007 03:54 PM
BPD and the Revolving Door sociallyawkward1037 Personality Place 7 Apr 03, 2007 01:20 AM


All times are GMT -5. The time now is 04:24 AM.
Powered by vBulletin® — Copyright © 2000 - 2025, Jelsoft Enterprises Ltd.




 

My Support Forums

My Support Forums is the online community that was originally begun as the Psych Central Forums in 2001. It now runs as an independent self-help support group community for mental health, personality, and psychological issues and is overseen by a group of dedicated, caring volunteers from around the world.

 

Helplines and Lifelines

The material on this site is for informational purposes only, and is not a substitute for medical advice, diagnosis or treatment provided by a qualified health care provider.

Always consult your doctor or mental health professional before trying anything you read here.