[Myshell]

Hello to all! I am new to Psych Central and I am new to this forum! I lost my precious Angel...my beautiful mother almost 4 years ago and it just doesn't get any easier to get on with life!! I mean, it's gotten a little better. I can get out of bed and not freak out! I can leave the house more now with having anxiety and panic attacks. I can listen to music and enjoy it! I can spend quality time with my son and enjoy being with him and I am grateful for the blessing that he is!! I just don't have that joy for life like I did when she was here!! She made everything beautiful! I miss everything about her and I am so lonely for HER! I feel bad because I can't go to her grave and I really don't like to think about her because I get so depressed....I mean really depressed! I know I need to let her go and be happy and grateful for the time that God gave me with her....it's just so hard to let go!! My heart is broken and I can't seem to fix it!! I don't know what will fix it! My heart aches for her smile, her hugs, her laugh, her smell, her everything!! Oh God, I need help!!! She was my Angel here on earth and now she is my Angel in Heaven! I love you mommy to the moon and back again and around the sun and back again!!

[TerryL]

First of all, welcome to PC. Secondly, I am so sorry for your loss It sounds like you and your mother had a wonderful relationship. I too lost my mother 4 years ago and am still dealing with my grief also. It has not been easy for me to move on. Although my situation is different from yours one thing that is helping me is grief counseling. Talking about my grief with the right counselor has helped me a lot. It took me a while to find the right person but it has been worth the effort. I hope you will consider trying that. Meantime, please post as often as you need to. We are all here for you.

[Myshell]

Miss Terry,
Thank you for your reply to my post! You made me feel very welcome in a new place! And you gave me some comfort! You can understand what I'm feeling and going through because you have lost your mother also! I did try grief counseling at the Hospice, but the lady really didn't help me! She was just text book and she told me things that I already knew but not what was going to get me through this!! I will try to find someone else! I will take your advice! Thank you and God bless you!! May the Angels surround you and wrap you in their beautiful wings of comfort tonight and always!!

Originally Posted by TerryL

First of all, welcome to PC Secondly, I am so sorry for your loss. It sounds like you and your mother had a wonderful relationship. I too lost my mother 4 years ago and am still dealing with my grief also. It has not been easy for me to move on. Although my situation is different from yours one thing that is helping me is grief counseling. Talking about my grief with the right counselor has helped me a lot. It took me a while to find the right person but it has been worth the effort. I hope you will consider trying that. Meantime, please post as often as you need to. We are all here for you.

[TerryL]

Oh I can relate about the grief counselor not helping. In case my experiences might help you--I went to five of them, some were social workers, some were psychologists, and they, like yours, said things I already knew and I did not feel any better. None of them delved into my past or family dynamics and deep down I knew I needed someone who would do that, to figure out why I was feeling so bad for so long. But I never verbalized that to the counselors. and now I know I should have. I gave up trying for a while. Recently I decided to try again but I decided this time I would tell the T what I needed from them if I needed to. I finally went online and found a good candidate. We had a free phone consultation and she sounded right. I just had my first session with her and she was great. I hope you won't have to go through as many Ts as I have. Wishing you much peace and happiness.

[Travelinglady]

Hi, myshell! No one can really replace a good mother. I still miss my dad, who died many, many years ago. A big to you, and welcome to PC!

[lizardlady]

Myshell, welcome to PC and the grief forum.

My mother has been gone for almost three years. She was not only my mom, she was my best friend. I still miss her every day. My missing her is always just sort of "there".

Please feel free to post as much as you need.