[persevere]

I lost my cousin, then 4 months later my dad then 5 month later my sister, my cat died two days before my dad.

I was doing ok since this happened in 2013.

But about a month ago my daughter friend was murdered by her girlfriend, it was on the local news and my daughter was upset and there was public memorials. I just couldnt go. Then this week I found out that someone I was close to online who I actually even met in person and had a relationship with for a year has cancer 2-3 months to live.

Today I got a low grade on a 15 page paper I write for school and had a meltdown in front of my professor who acted baffled and condescended me.

Then I went home and binged on food and felt sick, cried alot.

After that I came here.

[Insignificant other]

OMG! I really feel for you.
I'm glad you came here .. its a safe place.
My thoughts and prayers are with you at this time.
Hang in there.

[Angelique67]

That's a terrible amount of loss! I'm so sorry it happened like that. You are free here to say anything you feel. It's a very safe place to bring yourself. I hope you'll find everything you are looking for.

[Creamsickle]

I'm sorry for all your losses. Maybe grief counseling would help you. Or, just to write out your feelings here. Sharing with others helps a little .

[persevere]

Thanks, surprisingly I have done pretty good up until this week.

Yesterday when my Professor gave me a low grade for a paper I worked so hard in, I lost it. I had a meltdown in front of him and cried and he was really rude to me about it.

I couldnt stop crying and I left and cried in my car driving home. When I got home I started bingeing on food.

Afterward I felt sick and then hated myself for it.

I know it means I am not doing good.

[Pikku Myy]

Just be good to yourself I went thru a year when I lost 22 people... there is a moment when it is ok to be sad and cry. I hope you feel better very soon Sending you all the good energy I have.

[Angelique67]

Originally Posted by persevere

Thanks, surprisingly I have done pretty good up until this week.

Yesterday when my Professor gave me a low grade for a paper I worked so hard in, I lost it. I had a meltdown in front of him and cried and he was really rude to me about it.

I couldnt stop crying and I left and cried in my car driving home. When I got home I started bingeing on food.

Afterward I felt sick and then hated myself for it.

I know it means I am not doing good.

After my best friend died a long time ago, I started missing tons of work and all my savings had to go to paying taxes (like $10,000!). Sometimes you just have to give yourself time to grieve even if you do things that aren't in your plans. I'm so sorry you're going through this.

[persevere]

Thanks I am feeling really supported by the feedback in these posts.

It's almost like waking up and realizing that my feelings are more important than my grades.

It's ok to be human, I don't have to always strive to be perfect, sometimes life events happen and it takes longer to get back up, as long as I keep trying and don't give up.

But also it's ok to take time off to deal with my grief and in that process I might have to let go of other things and that's ok.

This is what I am getting from the replies here and it really truly helped me, I feel much better in realizing that, thank you all very much for responding to me.