I'm new and very sad

Hi
I've been trying to handle losing my therapist and dealing with what she and her husband did. My therapist ask me to come in on a sat. for an extended session and I did. Just after minutes of being there she and her husband tied me up and tried to do an excorcism. I am Dissociative Identity Disorder. I was seeing this therapist for 10 months and was getting better and then this happened. She no longer works for the mental health facility I go to and charges have been filed. I feel crushed and I really miss her and angry at her at the same time. This happened two weeks ago and I'm falling apart emotionally. I have made an appt with a new Therapist but I don't know if I can trust again. My question is, Is it normal to miss this therapist so much and feel abandoned by her? and then feel angry to? I'm so hurt and confused.

First, welcome Dorine. It is nice to have met you.

Yes, it is normal to miss the therapist a lot, because of what you have been through previous to the last session with her. 10 months is plenty of time to feel friendly towards others and feel like they feel that way towards you.

I can also agree that it is normal to feel angry. You have that right to feel that way, because no one should treat you that way. There is a dissociative identity disorder page on psychcentral, too, if you wanted to go there and see and visit others who are suffering from the same disorder.

I would definitely go to the new therapist. Not every single therapist is misunderstanding, non caring and judgmental.

Hope for the best for you--and nice to meet you again! WELCOME TO PsychCentral!!!!

Hi Dorine,
I'm so, so sorry that happened to you. How horrible and confusing for you! I'm glad you have an appt. to see a new T. You deserve a whole lot better than you got.

At the same time, I totally can understand your mixed emotions about your former T. She helped you. You confided in her and trusted her. And you even felt like you were getting better. I can see why you would miss all that!

On the other hand, please don't let what happened to you prevent you from trusting someone new. Perhaps you'd want to have a trusted family member or friend with you as you get to know your new T?

As far as wondering whether your feelings are normal -- they most certainly are!! You are probably feeling all kinds of things at the same time. I know I would be!

Welcome to PC. I think you'll find that there are a lot of wonderful and supportive people here. I look forward to getting to know you!
Take good care,
Okie

Dorine,

That's awful. You should be feeling a range of motions from what happened to you. All the feelings you mentioned sound perfectly normal.

I'm so sorry this has happened to you. You will be able to trust again. Just give yourself some time.

EJ

Precious Dorine,

That's terrible!!!!!! How are you coping?

My heart to you!

SSR

Everyday seems impossible to get through but somehow I'm doing it. I cry a lot and force myself to get outside, if only to smoke a cigg. I am glad there is a site like this and people who can understand. I don't feel so alone today and that's a good feeling. Thanks so much!

Dorine,

Remember: you are very precious and everyone here cares about you!

SSR

Hello and welcome to Psych Central.(((DORINE))). I am sorry that you have been traumatized by your former therapist. I do understand the confusion that you must have at this time since you put so much trust into your former therapist. I just hope that you will try to stay open minded when you see another therapist, that not all therapists
are the same and will harm you in the same manner. DID is confusing enough to the person with DID than to have trust taken from them as well by a professional.It is very normal for you to have the emotional issues that you are having at this time and it is okay to still care for your therapist because your therapist was a very integrated part of your life. There is nothing abnormal about caring for someone that cared for you that you put your trust in while you are in therapy. There is no reason to feel awkward for your feelings and emotions at this time. It is good that you are able to express yourself in a honest manner to get the help you need at this time. I hope the best for you in your future with your new therapist and I hope you can feel better soon. take care. soidhonia

First Off!!!!!!!!!!!!! ((((((((welcome mat placed at door ))))))))....
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