Just One Call

What I wouldn't give just to be able to pick up the phone and call her right now. I still haven't deleted her number from speed dial, and no one even lives there anymore. Sometimes, I think that if I just dial it, some way, somehow, she'll pick up. Ya know? I know that sounds just plain goofy, but I'm sure we have all been there. Eight months on the 19th....eight months since he took her. His name runs chills down my spine and fills my heart with rage. Raymond Thompson has forever changed my life. Still no jury date yet....hopefully soon though. With all of the other charges against him his maximum sentence would be around 185 years. Why not just death? He admits to the murder...why not give him the same fate? Of course now, it would more likely be death by leathal injection. Why give him the satisfaction of a roof over his head, three square meals in his stomach, and education, cable television? Why? Because he took my mother he can stay in prison and have a semi normal life? MAYBE for a couple of years, getting out on what they call "good behavior"? I don't understand. Forty six years old. That's all. She'll never know her grandson, or the children to come. She'll never see her oldest granddaughter make all those mile stone I know that she was hoping to be such a big part of. My daughter spend every weekend with her. Everyone for the past 4 years. Will she remember the day she heard those awful words? Will she remember crying for days? Will Raymond Thompson even care? He probably will never give it a second thought. Only mad that he is stuck in prison and never even got any money from her. In some weird way I think it is very funny that he actually didn't get a dime from her. She had nearly 600 dollars in her front pocket...and he stole her purse. But...then I think, how STUPID!!!! He stole her purse and killed her for absolutly nothing. I keep running over the day before she died. We actually got to have a wonderful day before. No fighting, no mean words and for some reason, more love in our voices than normal. We didn't really fight ever, but she was a very strong woman and always had her "opinion", ya know? Very strong. She always had a comment. But that day. Everything was....nice...We all had lunch (my husband, my daughter, my mom and I) We talked about christmas coming up, dinner plans, the baby. She couldn't wait to spoil him. She had JUST found out that it was going to be her first grandson. I even told her what his name would be. She had tears in her eyes when she saw the ultra sound. A good day to look back on. Remembering always brings a smile to my face. My Mom and I never had a "mother daughter relationship" until about 3 years ago . I'm 23 now. My WHOLE LIFE...that's all I ever wanted. I just wanted her to be there....and she finally was. Why then...why after things were great was she taken? Everything for a reason they say. Anyhow, my rant today is whether or not you are for or against the death penalty. Mind you, I don't think it applies in all cases. But with this case, Raymond Thompson admitted to the murder. He gave every detail of how it happened and the bulllet testing confirms. Should he have the death penalty?? Or should he rot in a prison resort?

I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. I am close to my mom as well, and I know that it will devastate me when she is gone.

I understand your anger and feel it is justified. If, as you say, he has completely admitted to all of it and it has been confirmed, I believe he should be sentenced to death. I'm not in favor of having people sit in prison and get 3 meals a day,etc.

I used to work for the sheriff's dept. doing jail visitation and such. It isn't easy for the inmates,but I also believe that when you take a life, your punishment should be harsher than simply "jail time".

Such a young age - [sigh] Again, you have my condolences and I hope in time that your wounds heal. They'll never completely go away, but they'll heal.

God bless.......


Courage is fear that has said its prayers.
Dorothy Bernard

I am sorry for your pain. It is a horrible place to be. You are smart though in the way thaT You said to remember the day she saw the ultrasound. Yes, remember those days, the things she did with your daughter. Don't let this man take away what you had and what you have. You had a mother who loved you. You loved her. She was a good grandmother. He wins if you lose sight of that. Hold those memories close and work through the horror of her murder. Hold onto the life, not the death. I hope this makes sense. I just recently had to figure this out for myself after 5 years without a loved one. I was stuck in the trauma of her death and it took some good therapy to get back to her life and that celebration. Hope this helps. Peace to you.

I am against the dead penalty, however, if anybody ever did that to my mom, or daughters or son, I would want them dead. BIG TIME!
and not lethal injenction, I would want them to suffer through the process, just as much or more than my loved one did...

BUT THEN, I remember there is a higher power than all of us, and it is not me or a judge the person that would do such a thing would have to respond to. And then I also think I am better than that, so, I should try to avoid such feeling to invade my heart. I would try to turn around and instead of looking at the bad I would count my blessings and all the beautiful things and people that are in my life. Remember the good, be thankful for the memories, and let love take over my life and those around me.

My prayers are with you.

gab