My Mom Died Today

Thank you both so much.

after reading the story of your mom's life i can surely see where you get your strong spirit from......what an amazing woman she was to keep going despite all the tragedies....i envy you orange.....to have a mom like that.......to have had a good relationship with the person who matters most......God bless you orange......

((( magical mystery tour )))

It was a month today that my mom died. It doesn't seem possible. I made an attempt to have fun in the Games Forum as a way to avoid the unavoidable.

I wore myself out trying not to think about her. I'm not ready to feel that yet.

I remember when my stepmother died from cancer........she was the best mother I had ever had.......it is so hard and I am there with you. My deepest sympathies and big hugs to you......

Thank you.

I'm sorry for your loss too, Michah.

Five weeks ago yesterday. It doesn't seem possible.

It's still so unreal.

I've heard people say we are put on this earth for a reason and I have come to the conclusion that I was put here to help bury my family and help those left behind deal with their loss.

And I can be there for others, at least in the moment, but I'm not so good with the fall out. I become an emotional sponge and soak up everyone's sadness and then I'm left feeling all alone, like I always did, being the only girl and the youngest of the family.

Lyrics from Tull's Thick As A Brick just popped into my head. How fitting.

And the youngest of the family is moving with authority.
Building castles by the sea, (s)he dares the tardy tide to wash them all aside.

Thank you all so very much for listening to me while I try to woirk through this.

just stopping to say that i am thinking of you.......words can never fully express the sorrow one feels during the hard times of a friend........

((( katheryn )))



((( magical mystery tour )))

((((((((Orange)))))))))))))))))))))) my thoughts are always with you

((Orange)))))) i fell speechless, i am sorry about your mom and i i hope you are ok, if not, i care and i hope you can feel better in time

orangeblossom

Thanks so much everyone. I appreciate all of you keeping me in your thoughts.

I will not lie. Today was rough. I was sorting through some of her paperwork and files and came across a bag full of old sympathy cards that she had received when my brothers died.

It was UNBELIEVABLE to me to be standing there with those cards in my hands, realizing what an incredible loss it is. Not only to me, but to their wives and their children.

But I also realized that, although I have had my share of issues in relation to those losses, I am still standing. And breathing. And living.

I know a lot of you have read the story I wrote, Copper Trees, after my favorite brother died. ( Here's the link in case someone wants to read it-- http://forums.psychcentral.com/showp...28&postcount=1 )

Well, today I found the receipt from the donation my mother made to have my brother's name engraved on a leaf and put on the tree. I also found a brochure about it that I didn't know existed. It was called the Serenity Tree. I tucked the info inside the magazine the story was published in. I thought it was fitting.

It was a tough day.

((((Orange)))), Rap.

so sorry honey......

(((((((((((((Orange Blossom)))))))))))))
The constellation is gathering around you
many stars to hug and support you
holding you up
giving you strength
sharing the pain

((( Rap )))

((( mysterytour )))

((( white_iris and all )))

Hugs for you all.

Fallout, I know all too well, what this is and means...it is wonderful you can and have the capacity to be your family's emotional sponge, if you can try to be your own sponge also, so you are not left feeling so alone, take time for yourself, doing things that are 'you.'

(((((((((((( Orange ))))))))))))))

So sorry to hear of your loss, sorry I'm late on this, I haven't been around much.
Deepest Sympathy,
Roe

thoughts of you today......don't understand why but feeling your pain.......

(((( Junerain ))))

(((( mysterytour ))))

(((( darkeyes ))))

Out of the clear blue today (6 weeks ago today my mom died) my car clock and temp changed. (It tells me the outside air temp)

One minute it was 5:15 and 77 degrees Farenheit and the next minute it was 12:15 and 27 degrees Celcius.

I kinda chuckled a bit and said "Hi Mom" because that would definitely be something she would do.

When I shut off the car and turned it back on it was back to where it was supposed to be. Wonder if she'll be changing the radio station.

i'm so happy that your mom is finding ways to let you know that she is still "with" you.its so comforting......my dad comes to me in the spring as a butterfly who sits on my shoulder and hovers over the heads of my grandchildren when they are at play.....he also has come to my grandsons football and baseball games....lol....its something to hold on to.......God bless you my dear friend......

That is a cool thing about time and temp...