I feel like I'll never amount to anything

I feel like I'll never leave my mark on the world. I have no friends, no talents, skills, etc.... I was never diagnosed but I think I have social anxiety, and it would explain my poor social life. I literally have almost no friends at all, and I have no one that I can call or hang out with. I'm not saying that I want to hurt myself because I don't, but if I died right now, outside of my family, no one would care at all. That's a pretty extreme thing to say but it's true. I have made no impact on anyone's life. I'm 18, I have a good family, a great mother who provides me with everything that I need, and live in a good home, so on the outside, my life would look pretty good. It's not that simple though. Sometimes I get so angry and wonder why I have to be this way. I'm poor in social situations and I have no friends. I have never had a girlfriend before and I wish I knew what it was like to have that sort of companionship. I don't seem to be good at anything either. My school grades aren't very good, I tried sports but I'm bad at them, I have no friends, I don't really have anything to be proud of. Again, I'm not suicidal at all and I have never self-harmed before or even thought about doing it but I don't want to live the rest of my life this way.

Hang in there and find some things you'd be willing to take risks with in order to separate from your safe home environment. Having your parents support you is nice, but it can be a double edged sword.

I know exactly how you feel, Phantom. I'm 36, have a family, job and house, but feel like I'm just "here". I've never really accomplished anything in life and I'm not good at anything (no talents or real skills). I have always suffered from low self esteem and it seems to be getting worse with age, along with anxiety and depression.

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If someone were to ask you, "What do you like?", what would come to mind?

I'm about the same age and have the same anxieties, but hell, at least you have the family and the house. I live alone in a one-bedroom apartment and drink to pass the evening hours away. I always saw home and family as accomplishments that, somehow, I was too inadequate and weak to put together. My job is about the only thing keeping me together from day to day.

There's plenty of time. The trick is finding your "thing" and sometimes that takes a lot longer than 20-30-40 years. Don't pressure yourself too much and experiment around, it's out there, you just have to find it.

Broh, you are 18. None of us had any kind of lives that amounted to anything when we were 18, ok?

The kind of people that were already amounting to something when they were 18 are now giving seminars on how they became billionairs. And most of them didn't even know they were on the path to becoming billionairs because really all they were doing was pursuing some mad obsession that either leaves you homeless and deprived or a billionair.

So take a load off. You don't want to be bathing in accomplishment at 18 years of age cause that's really no kind of life.

You're supposed to be growing into who you'll be, making countless mistakes and trying your utmost best figuring out your place in the world. I guess that's what you're doing, and that's fine. You shouldn't be worried that you haven't found it yet.

School is just school, it doesn't really matter all that much, and it doesn't really affect how the rest of your life is going to turn out.

One thing about school though, and especially about the overpriced framed rag you'll be getting after you finish it...

If you don't know what you're going to be doing with your career, you might as well make sure you have an "easy time" while you're figuring it out. And what that means is, try to find some kind of profession that pays reasonably well, will give you at least SOME satisfaction and wont leave you utterly knackered at the end of each shift.

You do NOT want to spend the next ten years of your life trying to figure out what you want while flipping burgers and answering to douche bag third rate managers that you'd just as soon drown in their own goo than say hello to.

And please dear god do not try to find meaning by attaching yourself to some broken down girl hoping she'll bring meaning to your life. Really take it from me, that's the road to hell right there.

I understand the situation you are in, the loneliness and insecurity of it all, but just remember; the only way you can make that sad lonely place worse, is by adding people to it who will MAKE things worse.

So my advice to you is simply this... find something you like and just do that. If there's no money in it then either invent a market or turn it into a hobby until a market presents itself. Friends will come as soon as you have something to offer.

People are value seekers, they seek out people who can "do" something for them, who can improve their own lives in some small way. This is you, or at least the developed version of you.

i was the same, only thing i was good at was drawing.
very few friends and no life but there's always something you can do that will give your life a meaning.
for me it was bodybuilding, i liked it because it's a solitary effort so only person i relied on was myself.

things like that, music, martial arts etc you can do all those things on your own and will grow in all of them the more time you dedicate.

one thing that is a benefit of being alone is the time we can dedicate to a passion.
find something that has appealed to you from a young age, something that you've always wanted to do or achieve even if you forgot about it in recent times.
from that you can grow by dedicating time to it.

i literally just bought a keyboard piano when i was a teen and watched youtube tutorials, from that i learnt to play.
same with bodybuilding, took some old rusted plates and bars from a friend and just trained at home to build a foundation.

maybe you could do something similar that interests you.

I feel like I'll never leave my mark on the world. - It is far too early to say but it is good that you can think of these things, and you wrote a good post too.

A little perspective...you are 18!! At least time is on your side. What I hear from you is that you an ordinary average young man. I would focus on being the best human being you can. Why not join a gym and exercise? Why not go to college and get involved in clubs. Why not find a therapist to talk about your future!

Think about the man you want to be in 5, 10, 20 years. Stay away from hard drugs..by the way, because if you are lookig to fit in that might
be problem.

aye plenty of time to work things out and it may pay you to find a role model for me it was Arnold Schwarzenegger