Narcissistic father

Okay, it reminded me of Catholicism. That's the sect of Christian I'm involved in, in the interest of full disclosure for these frank discussions.

How was he the weaker one? I believe you, I'm just wondering what was going on there.

Your mother sounds like a ***** from hell, seriously.

Hahaha oh don't you just love that hypocritical ****? Nobody is a ray of light all the time. Anyone who claims they never feel resentment or other forms of anger, envy, etc are liars.

When people start going on about their moral superiority I have a hard time containing myself.

Lol! My ex was so utterly broken when I met him, he was a totally lapsed Catholic, bipolar, substance abusing alcoholic . The people in my first community had no clue I was the one who was carrying my ex and it makes me angry to think about it now.

Oh yeah. I know somebody who tells me they don't feel resentment . I'm like, really? Then I feel like putting them down . It's a horrible bond to be in. What would you do?

That sounds sufficiently infuriating.

If I really have a bone to pick with someone, I set them up so I can put them down and get away with said put down. If it was about someone claiming to never feel resentment I would manipulate them until they caved and did say that they were very resentful, preferably getting them to hurl some sort of verbal abuse at me... and if I can pull this in public, even better. I'd set them up to snap and lose their temper at me so any onlookers would see them as unstable as all I was doing was just talking after all.

Hmm, all that has been done and it didn't change a thing, that person still maintains their delusion. I don't do well with delusion, had a paranoid mom. I think I'm in a no win situation .

I have a particularly sadistic reaction to people with paranoid tendencies.

You and me both! I can not give in to my sadistic urges, not now . I paid the price for even admitting I have them. Christianity looks on all forms of alternatives the same. I suppose it's for my own good.

Do you believe it's truly for your own good?

I'm not being malicious here, I'm honestly asking.

I think to explore my own sadism at this point of my life would conflict with my religion. I know there are those who blend the two and I know if I were to remarry what I did in my bedroom would be my business but so far I've only been mocked for my alpha nature. I suppose when I meet a man who respects my alpha nature with men we might be in business but that has yet to happen and I'd rather be alone then be mocked. This ties into my thread on survivors of abuse. I've already had one abusive marriage. I'm not interested in a repeat performance .

Okay I see what you're getting at. Sounds rational and pretty healthy to me.

Thank you!