[droberge]

Hi my name is Danielle, and I have been having a particular horrible 'thought' for roughly 10 years. I dont know why, I never ever want to hurt anyone, and I dont know wha it means.

Every single time I stand near someone who is holding a knife I have a very strong 'urge' inside me to stab them. can someone PLEASE help me, I have been holding this is for ten years and it is consuming me I am to the point where I fear I might not be able to push the thoughts away. Whenever I feel this way I quickly leave the room, and the thoughts go away.

Thank you

[Perna]

Instead of "fighting" it, I would try to turn it into something "funny" like they do in Harry Potter with the "ridikulus" spell?

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[feary]

I wish I was standing next to you

[0110011001110101]

I think you should try and remind yourself that you're not that sort of person. You probably feel this way because you're so scared of hurting anyone even though in reality you'd never actually do it. Look, everytime these thoughts come to you, you never act upon them, do you? You can fight them, and you don't have to feel so bad about thinking them. Thoughts are just thoughts.

[Purplechick]

Intrusive thoughts are scary but, similar to what 0110011001110101 said, thoughts are just thoughts, they are not facts.

[Anna H]

Droberge, I had a somewhat similiar experience to you. Long story, but ultimately I went to a psychiatrist + clinical psychologists, etc. It's like people have said: thoughts are just that: thoughts, they do not define you. Don't feel bad/guilty about those thoughts. I think trying to suppress yourself from thinking about something can be counterproductive, it just makes things worse. Talk to someone about them if you can, like a doctor, counsellor, psychologist? Or a good friend you can trust. Don't bottle it up. Take care, ok?

[nightdreamer7982]

I've been having intrusive thoughts about killing one certain man? I've never felt those urges except until now. I just want to get a hold of his shoulders and shake him so hard and then kill him??!! I'm just wanting to do that so bad?!? I haven't had the desire to though and now. I'm to the point of doing that to him?? I've about had it with him to a certain extent though?? I just can't see myself doing that right now. If ever anyways so maybe. I won't fantasize about killing him right now!!!!!! I do how ever still love him and. I'll always love him regardless what. I do for him it's just maybe so hard for me too forget about him?? "Life After Him" by Daughtry and "It's Not Over" by Daughtry these are the two songs that describe my bf. xoxoxoxo Angela

[serenity4559]

Sunlight,
You are singing my song. I have been free and clear of my ex for five days, thanks to this site. The last four weeks of breaking up, getting back together was to put it mildly, not good for either of us. We escalated to the point of saying some ugly things to each other, like, "Go f**k who you want to, I don't care!" which was a lie, but... Anyway, long story short, we are or that is, we were both part of the same social circle. But, now I have made my own circle and it is okay. But, during that period in-between? I just wanted him to go away! I just wished or thought that is some divine accident happened to him, maybe the universe would be a better place. I am not proud of this, but... I also thought at the time, that I would never get over him. I could not imagine my life with him or without him. I felt stuck. Now, five days later after absolutely no contact whatsoever, the thoughts are gone. I know this doesn't qualify as intrusive thoughts or whatever, I just wanted you to know you are not alone in obsessing about one person in particular! I prefer to call it a short period of well-deserved hatred from which I recovered! The cravings to contact him, however, are still intermittent and ongoing. So,I will keep coming back.

[comfortable]

if thinking too much makes you uncomfortable, then try to believe that you hate being uncomfortable... just practice staying comfortable, and not doing the things which make you uncomfortable... this helped me very much with OCD.

also i used to constantly tell myself what to do, and how to do things, and this went away after i practiced making myself believe that i hated telling myself what to do and that it made me uncomfortable, and i hated being uncomfortable...

let me know if it helps you...

[nightdreamer7982]

Hi Serenity,
I didn't know that? I'm singing your song. I thought maybe hmmm. I was only the one doing that?! I am still doing my best to stop those. OCD killing thoughts but they're truly difficult?!

[nightdreamer7982]

[quote=nightdreamer7982;1481898]Hi Serenity,
I didn't know that? I'm singing your song. I thought maybe hmmm. I was only the one doing that?! I am still doing my best to stop those. OCD killing thoughts but they're truly difficult?!

[nightdreamer7982]

Hi Serenity,
I didn't know that? I'm singing your song. I thought maybe hmmm. I was only the one doing that?! I am still doing my best to stop those. OCD killing thoughts but they're truly difficult?!

[nightdreamer7982]

I'm still having the same thoughts but now? It's not about him anymore hmmm!! I'll say it's my hostile family?? I just can't let them people keep bugging me. I just want to tell him that. I will listen to him and not them anymore. Ugh!! and anyway well they're driving me up the wall every chance they get. I sometimes just want to tell them to back off and leave me alone. Ugh!! I just want to stay with him and be free of them? I do believe love and admiration go good together anyway. I trust and honor him now and not them anymore?? I guess maybe anyway hmmmm!!!! I just won't see or have anything to do with them anymore? I actually could do better with only him and even though he's so many miles away from me in another. State and even if my unaccepting family can't stand him controlling me well hmmmm!!!!!! I don't see what the big problem is anyway?
I am such a wonderful woman to him and he's a wonderful man to me as well . I truly do adore him for everything good he's my one and all for everything. I am actually surprised how. I allowed him to harass them for me yippeeee!!!! I just couldn't take anymore drama from them anyways. I love him so much and he does as well.