[cloudyworld]

Hello everyone nice to meet you
I have this weird thing in me. That i dont know whats it called. I read about ocd and some people posts about fear of harming themselves or other/cant control their own mind. Which sounds similiar. But im still unsure.
I hope anyone could help me for info that i need about my issue id be greatly appreciate it.
I have a negative suggestion/belief/embeddedin me that i couldnt /scared of losing control of myself, will screw up in important situation n most likely i ended up did. Which is harmful to myself. Thats the weird problematic thing. When that happens its like im fighting inside me. And the consequences of how bad it would be if i mess it up haunted me, and all the negative "what if" , making it worse, builds up the pressure. This suggestion making me insecure n losing trust of myself instead of what i want that i can count on my self. Cause i mostly fall into the negative side instead of the positive. It really mess me up. I wanna erase it i know its really stupid but i dont know why my mind behave this way. what could help/how to beat this/trick. I was thinking if hypnotherapy could help. Ive went to a psychologist but she just told me to talk and provided nothing.
As far as i try to find the root its still unknown. Guess my mind generating it. But i notice it since i got sick physicaly. Or maybe it making it worse/trigger it.
Im not sure if its ocd cause ocd mostly is about doing somethings repetitive.
Please help
Thank you so much for whoever answers.
Wish you a good day.

[bluekoi]

cloudyworld, I use to do the "what if?" (dysfunctional thinking). I thought only of the bad things that would happen and not of the good things. I saw a psychiatrist who taught me to chart these thoughts (a) followed by what I thought would happen (b) followed by what actually happened (c). I did this for about 1 1/2 months. I began to see I always thought negatively. Over the course of the next 1 1/2 months, my thinking patterns began to change. I learned that most likey outcome was positive and at the worst neutral. It took 3 months to change my dysfunctional thinking.

[kaliope]

it sounds like you may be catastrophizing; thinking the worst is going to happen. this is not ocd. this is a thinking error. CBT therapy can help this. blue koi has come up with a good idea on how you can address it as well. it will help you see the reality of the situation instead of how your mind is blowing it out of proportion. take care.

[scudrunner]

cloudyworld,

I can only imagine how difficult this must be for you, but I truly commend you for taking the initiative and seeking options. You mentioned hypnotherapy so I thought I might chime in and tell you the good and the bad news about that option. The way I read your post I got the impression you may have been thinking about what we refer to as hypnoamnesia wherein the thought could be removed from your mind. If that's not what you meant, and I misinterpreted what I read please forgive my error. If that is what you meant however I'll refer to this as the bad news as unfortunately the hypnotherapist isn't going to simply remove a thought, and in fact repeated attempts to go that route may at best try to repress them which is not your goal.

The good news on the other hand is that when when under the care of a psychotherapist, hypnosis can often help you in applying the tools that your counselor is giving you such as those described in bluekoi's post. For instance I will only work with addiction cases if the person is actively engaged in a 12 Step program. The reason is that I can't simply suggest the addiction away, but if they will commit to the 12 Step program, there is a lot hypnotherapy can do to help them apply those tools, keep them on task, keep them motivated, and certainly deal with the stress and anxiety.

Good luck and certainly consider finding a good therapist in your area who can teach you some coping tools.