[Bongo2015]

Hello everyone,

Not posted in here in a while, just wanted to talk about something OCD related that has occurred on the last couple of nights out I've had. I don't go out that often, maybe once every few months if that. I've never been much of a night owl.

Anyway me and a group of friends got a taxi up to our local city last Wednesday night and went to the local gay clubs for a drinks. Now before we went to the city I'd had a couple of glasses of wine, a cocktail and one mixer drink. I wasn't that drunk just merry. When we got to the clubs in our city I must have only had a couple of mixer drinks in each bar and this was over a six hour period so was in control of myself the whole time.

We got back very late/early whatever you want to call it. I had enjoyed myself. Went to bed and when I woke up I just felt guilty. Also, I've been having these thoughts of 'what If I did something wrong', what if I did something with a guy etc etc. However, I remember everything that happened, even when I was given another mixer by a friend I put it down as I'd had enough. Surely I would have remembered if I had done anything like that. My mind is tormenting me basically and this has happened on more that one occasion now.

[MusicLover82]

Trust yourself when you say you were "in control of [yourself] the whole time." Go to the mirror and talk to yourself about this. Reassure yourself. None of us can reassure you, and that is a compulsion I have, too, when I'm obsessing. As hard as it is, don't seek reassurance, because acting out on compulsions can make obsessions worse. I have learned to reassure myself, and it makes a big difference in how long I obsess about something.

HUGS!!

[Bongo2015]

Thanks! Ive been on nights out before, got drunk but been in control of myself. However, never had OCD thoughts before in relation to it.

[Shleigh]

This happens to me almost anytime I have anything to drink. I'll keep asking myself if I did something until I almost believe it. I wonder if I cheated, even though I know I could never do that. My husband is almost always with me. I have to try to remind myself that. I also just feel pure guilt. When it gets bad, I don't ever want to leave the house. I'll dream about it, and then obsess about it.

I've never been diagnosed with OCD. I do have schizoaffective bipolar, ADHD, and panic disorder. However, my mom has severe OCD, more than any story I have ever heard.
I have noticed, and so has she, that I have and/or are developing a lot of the tendencies and compulsions she has, some new and some that I know I developed from learning from her as a child. I was a very stressed child.

She's had it since a child (she had an extremely traumatizing childhood).It seems to have gotten worse over the years, especially the contamination OCD. She feels on the verge of a breakdown, and although she reassures me that she would never hurt herself and do that to me, she just doesn't want to live most of the time. It's not a life. She doesn't enjoy anything. She always has something wrong with her physically, usually real, but sometimes it's psychosomatic, and compulsively obsessing about it and doing nothing but looking it up makes it so much worse and introduces new things to worry about.

Just know you are not alone with intrusive thoughts. I am curious, is there anything that has worked for you, or anyone who reads this? Do you know of any inpatient treatment centers for OCD?

[Fuzzybear]