[girlcharm18]

I thought my ocd was getting better I hate this ocd so much that I wish I had the germ phobia again or something else other then this one! its awful right now I started checking again and spend most of my time on the internet making sure im not crazy but when I have my unwanted thinking and spikes and the doubt that plauges me I feel crazy!! I hate hate hate it its bringing me to tears I hate the fact that everytime I have an unwanted intrusive thought it causes anxiety an panic and endless worry for days! and I have to check on it everytime on everything I live in fear of everything! sorry for ranting it just im spiking! the only time I get relife is when I check and know im not alone and the only one with this sort of thing but its only breif! I charish the days when my anxiety from this isn't bad but then I think im a freak cause im not panicking its a stupid cycle!!!!!!

[gimmeice]

((((((((((( girlcharm )))))))))))

Are you on any meds to help with your ocd? Meds can be very helpful, if you are already on them you may want to ask your doctor to see if they can make an adjustment. I have went through some majorly bad ocd phases where I was convinced I was going crazy, the main thing to do is try to lessen any stress in your life that you can, anxiety usually causes the spike in symptoms. Do you have a T? My T has helped me find ways to lessen my anxiety with the help of my meds, I am lousy at relaxation techniques so in my case the meds are important.

[girlcharm18]

no I think about going I have wrote in my other posts about ts here in my area and meds and would rather self help I don't wanna be on meds forever I don't like how they make me feel and how u feel when u come off them ..in my last posts I had found ways to relax but for the last couple days my anxiety is bad about everything! to the point im in tears! today isn't so bad but its only about to be 11 am!

[rsdcv]

I have dealt with OCD and am now 46, I have done it on my own and with meds and neither way is easy. It all has to do with stress. If you want talk just let me know.

[girlcharm18]

Originally Posted by rsdcv

I have dealt with OCD and am now 46, I have done it on my own and with meds and neither way is easy. It all has to do with stress. If you want talk just let me know.

thank u! I notice that with me it comes and goes sometimes its just hell other times its nothing or its mild or moderate it verys and the panic is different as well its just weird and what's weird is that when I don't feel anxious or scared worried etc I don't feel normal I obsess about that im weird or I think people think im weird its like a huge circle with different obsessions and different feelings its hard to uderstand sometimes!