So lonely here tonight...

Well, nothing else is going on so please oblidge me while I ramble on about nothing...

Sitting here at my computer drifting aimlessly, checking for replies to posts on various boards I use, reading Yahoo's news, planning tomorrow, daydreaming...

My pet goose is standing on my bed grooming it's feathers and making little squawking noises every now and then.

I took a Lorazapam (1mg) about 6 hours ago and for the first time in months, I have actually felt normal again although I get little aches and pains here and there that make me worry but my anxiety is now almost non-existant. I'm wondering how long this will last and wether any new problems will pop up. Youi just never know when it comes to anxiety. I had an arm pit block that affects the neck so maybe that explains the stiffness and occational ache on that side of my neck. I just took a Vistaril which is an antihistmaine (otherwise known as Atarax) so I'm starting to get a bit sleepy.

I'll usually shut the computer off, take my shoes off and then crawl into bed. Then my goose will hop up there with me and start giving me some loving in my face and making a big fuss over me. Sometimes I'll pull it under the covers and sleep with it all night like that and other times (like last night) I'll just let it be and sleep under the covers by myself. It really is a great pet.

Well, can't think of much else to say at the moment. I'm just sort of reflecting on everything and feeling kind of lonely right now so I figured I'd come in here and just share my thoughts. I've really come to like all of you a lot over the months. A lot of good people here who really care and want to help other people and I think that is AWESOME. I always feel very comfortable and cared for here.

Sometimes I get in a panic and say the wrong thing or look selfish or insensitive because I'm so caught up in my own little world and other times, I am able to think clearly and I feel good enough to sit down and create a thoughful post where I'm not freakling out about this or that. Anyway, I guess I'll stop rambling and hit the hay. Nite to all

- GreyGoose

Not much to say, myself, but it has been one of those "lonely weeks", though people are around me in the the 3d, I am still "alone".
Till someone other than the pdoc. knows of this disorder, the loneliness, and frustration, I'll be alone and left trying to conquer (sp?) life's struggles.
Sorry, that was a downer, I also can laugh, joke around, etc. and still marvel that I still have that ability left

Rambling too much here, eh?

You take care now and drop by again

DE

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I think your one of the most awesome people here. I think your anything but selfish. Dont feel bad or appologize for posting your thoughts, feelings, concerns or fears here. That is what this forum is for. I will support you and offer what ever advice I can to help you through your rough spots. We all go through it and we all need to lean on one another every now and then. Lean on us GG, we are here for you. Take care.

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I'm so sorry you're lonely. It is one of the worst "side effects" I have from my illnessess. I hope you feel better soon.

January

hi tim.......sorry to hear about your feeling lonely last evening but it was wonderful to read your post.....you sounded so much less anxious....for me .like many others....you have a place in my heart and you are someone i think about and worry about even when i'm away from this computer......love and peace....julia

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I am sorry you've been feeling lonely but am glad you feel comfortable and cared about here.

(Like some others I get ticked off here sometimes and post a bit elsewhere. Some other sites, especially the admin there, suck!!!!!!! I still think this is a very well run site with awesome members...... just that we are human, ya know and not perfect ... This isn't addressed to you grey, I just felt like venting a bit myself ..)

With kindness,
Fuzzy

that was a lovely post, GreyGoose.......you sounded calm and collected. what a nice feeling you must have had.......xox pat

Greygoose, hope ya had a peaceful sleep and today will be sunny and bright
Love ya
Angie

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Hope you're feeling better GG.

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