[bluebirdlady]

I just can't stop bawling. My mom passed away last November very unexpectedly right before her birthday and I just can't deal with mother's day this year.I have no friends or family to talk to. My sisters and I don't get along. I have 1 friend but they still have their moms and they just don't understand. I was very sick with possibly swine flu last mother's day so I didn't go to the get together and didn't see her last year on mother's day, I didn't want to chance getting anyone sick as I had high fever.........I would have never dreamed it would be my last chance to see her on mother's day ever again.....we spent her birthday with her at the funeral home, some happy birthday........

Sorry for rambling, I could go on for hours......please cherish your moms this mother's day even if you don't get along with them......I worshiped my mom as a child but didn't get along so well as adult but loved her just as much........

[Yoda]

[Sabrina]

I am so sorry for your loss!

((((((( bluebirdlady )))))))

[Typo]

(((((((((Bluebirdlady))))))))))

Maybe you could do something special, in honor of her memory this mother's day? To celebrate the life she had and the love you had for her.

It's not exactly the saem, but I lost my grandmother who I was very close to four years ago, I go out on the anniversry of that loss to her favorite restruant, by myself usually, and just allow myself to remember the good times we had and how special she was to me

I'm so very sorry for your loss bluebirdlady, you are in my thoughts

Sending many hugs, peace, and serenity to you
Typo

[buttrfli42481]

(((((bluebird)))))

I am so sorry for your loss. Mother's Day is hard for me too. This year will mark the 8th aniversary of my Grandma's and my sister's death. This Mother's Day is also my sister's birthday, she would have been 45, and she passed on the 18th of May. While it isn't the same as losing your Mom, it is still rough around the holidays. I like what Typo suggested about going to the favorite restraunt. One year we had a picnic in honor of Grandma and Becky. This year is going to be hard for you, but with each passing year, it does get slightly easier. The pain softens, but the memories never go away. That is what you need to hold on to, the memories. If the tears come, let them fall, allow yourself to grieve what you had, and what you didn't. Don't beat yourself up for not being able to spend the last Mother's Day with your mom. You didn't know it would be her last, and she didn't either more than likely. Even though your sisters and you don't get along, have you thought that they might be doing the same thing? Try giving them a call, just to say "I am really missing mom, how are you doing?" Sometimes things like this bring families back together. You never know until you try. Sending lots of hugs and prayers your way.

[lynn P.]

(((bluebirdlady))) - I'm so sorry for the loss of your dear mother. I think Typo has a good idea about doing something special. I think it would be beautiful, to plant a flowering tree - it would bloom every year around this time of year. Instead of feeling sad, remember how great she was for you, growing up. She wouldn't want you to be sad.

[50guy]

My Mom died suddenly 1 year ago last October. It was very difficult to get through Mother's Day but, I was able to by thinking of all she did for me over her lifetime.

I expect this one to be difficult too.

[fearfulfrog]

bluebird- I am deeply sorry for your loss-

I still have my mother, although our relationship is as it has always been - shallow- I fear I won't grieve her as much as others when that time comes; Mother's Day for me is a triple edged sword (I know that isn't real)- 1) I am in a custody battle with my sister over my son- so I can't wake up on Mother's Day to 'breakfast in bed' by my adorable 7 year old. 2) My own mother is standing by my sister in keeping my son away from me- All of my siblings should have been taken away from HER ( but alas in the 70's child abuse wasn't thought about as much). 3) My greatest grief ( an what eventually led to my son being taken away) is that it has been 4 years since our last fertility treatment- I miscarried the baby mother's day weekend; It was my last chance to be a mother again.

To all out there who are motherless children and those who are childless mothers:

[Julial]

My own mother died last June of a suicide and this Mother's Day feels especially poignant. In the past I always looked for the prettiest and most elaborate greeting card because that was always kind of a tradition for the mothers, grandmothers, etc. in my family. This year I am angry and have tried to avoid commercials or stores because of my mother. I have a very good t and she is working with me on this and most of the time I understand my mother's illness and try to understand her problems But the little girl does come out in me sometimes and does ask 'where was she". I understand your isolation and my heart breaks for you. I loved my mother dearly despite and in spite of her problems and I will always miss her. I wish I could say it gets better but because her death is recent for me, I don't know if it will. My heart tells me life goes on as does hope. Know that you are not alone and we are here for you.

[AmadeusApple]

(((bluebirdlady)))

(((((bluebirdlady)))))I lost my mom 3 days after my 50th birthday----needless to say, i don't much care for my birthday at all anymore---

But, you know something? She is always with me--I oft hear her words come right out of my own mouth----------She is always alive in my heart.xoxoxoxotheo

For all who have lost a parent or parents, may you find peace.

[SleepyOne]

I became a first time mother in April, 2009 and Mother's Day was a little hard last year for me. I chalked it up to hormones and PP Blues and Depression. (My mother passed away in 1996.) For some reason I haven't been able to get out of bed today and have been extremely depressed. Yes, I should be out there with my husband and 1-year old or even out of the house with them but I'm not. (FYI-I'm on medication for bipolar 2). It was very hard on me having my first daughter at 41 years old (not to mention getting married at 40) without my mother being here and I think it's kinda come to a boiling point.

Holidays are hard when you first lose a parent and even though you get 'used' to them there will be times when you go through pain as if it has just happened. If doing something special helps you then do it. For me, I just have to take it easy and hope it's better next Mother's Day.

[nion]

I hate mother's day. My mother is a psychopath and it reminds me every year that i have no real mom to talk to. :<