Happiness

I'm happy now but i feel like the situation is very fragile. I guess i'm just not used to being happy? Does anyone else feel this way? That happiness is a fragile phenomenon, that one could lose it at any moment. I feel sad that it has to be that way.

I can understand this. It seems like whenever stuff starts going well for me and I might be, *gasp*, actually happy with my life and where I am, I end up heading back towards being depressed. That's kind of where I am now. Things are going well for me, for the first time in a long time, so why am I struggling now? I think my brain is out to sabotage me.

I do think that sometimes people who struggle with depression have an advantage over other people because we're less likely to take our happiness for granted. There's something to be said for that, I guess.

sometimes.........i don't think it has to be this way.........if you feel that your happiness is so fragile......embrace it.......then its no longer fragile but strong and lasting.......

I'm sorry about that Renwolf. Maybe your depression comes in bouts?

I think your last point was very true. That people who have/ are suffering from depression are grateful for their happiness and don't take it for granted. I stumbled across that thought when writing my diary. I was trying to think of the good things that could come out of what i've been through and that was one of them!

Butterfly i do try to embrace it. But that doesn't gaurantee that my happiness will stay with me.

I certainly agree with you that happiness is fragile and also can be very fleeting.
Also the statements that those of us who suffer from depression can really appreciate the happiness when it comes to us feels very true to me.
I have actually used that line to some when trying to explain how I feel. So many seem to take it for granted not realizing how quickly it can go away.
I have just been helping someone through the grief process after losing her husband, she never realized how fragile her happiness was until this. It breaks my heart to see her like this but she never again will take it for granted.
I wish everyone would wake up before its too late. Life is too fleeting and fragile to ever be taken for granted. Linda