I am okay but I feel sad today. The reason was because I found a comment that my friend wrote. I like him and I feel like I hardly have any "best friends". The comment was about how they have been there for each other and that they had good times and so on.. My friend is a boy and I like him and the comment he commented his status on was a girl. it made me feel jealous. Now I feel like I haven't got any best friends. I keep thinking sucidal thoughts. After, I cut myself and I strangled myself today. I had a cry when I walked out of the house and my brother and mum was concerned. Maybe I should kill myself, it would be good if I was gone. I feel like I don't have much friends. I feel alright but I'm not too good. I need people to cheer myself up. It's not his fault, it's my fault. He deserves his best friends. I am just nothing to people and I don't mean anything to him. He would tell me I am something to him. I thought to myself, I might plan tonight to kill myself. I'm not going to kill myself, it's just a thought in my head. Strangeling myself would be easy. I like it when I feel lightheaded. But I feel like I need God again. I feel like reaching out to God to help me but something is stopping me. I do feel happy I have other friends. I hope you lot on psych central are my friends. I know I am a attention seeker. Today I probably be worrying and thinking sucidal thoughts /:

[paintedgoldfish]

I can see that you are in a lot of pain.

I am glad you wrote your post here on PC. But today you sould call 911 or go right now to the ER. There is no time to play around with suicidal thoughts and attempts. Please be good to yourself today and trust that you are reaching out because you want to live.
I know those feelings well but I always try to trust the side of me that favors life. I know you will feel better if you give yourself a chance to live your future.

paintedgoldfish

[disguise123]

u are not attention seeking, you are looking to express your hurt to someone.
And we see it.
I wish it was so simple to make u feel better but its hard to create a miracle out of words on a screen.
Its true you need to reach out. You need to ask for some medical help.
Im sorry ur hurting.
U talked about god
Here. Did u go to church? Maybe if you make a plan to go to a church and just sneak in the back , something will help you. I dont know im not a believer. But if something has brought you peace before maybe it will again.
I will hope for good times to come to you again.

[Can't Stop Crying]

Happy - I really think you need help IRL..I know it's scary, but you've been having these thoughts so frequently now...do you think it's time to seek out more help?

Originally Posted by Can't Stop Crying

Happy - I really think you need help IRL..I know it's scary, but you've been having these thoughts so frequently now...do you think it's time to seek out more help?

Yeah maybe I do but I'm used to saying all this suicdal thoughts. I have thought of visiting the doctor during the easter holidays. I might take my sister with me if she wants.

I'm feeling a little better. I just wish I was at home now relaxing. I got 20 minutes to my next lesson.