[dpadilla89]

Dont mind me--im just venting...

Last night was a horrible night for me. I was having a delusion, urged to cut, bad anxiety attacks, panic attacks later on, paranoia,urges to vomit,i wanted to beat myself..yeahh...i felt like crying so0o0o much. right now, i feel the same tonight. it really sucks for me. its wierd..because right now i'm thinking i should beat myself up because i deserve it and maybe i will feel better and my problems will go away...BUT..on the other hand im feeling that its not true...you know?? sorry...just venting...

deb

[dottie]

Deb...please don't hurt yourself. Be good to yourself, instead. You are worthy of having peace and serenity in your life.

TGC

[dexter]

dp your problems won't go away if you beat yourself up. Doing so may give you some sense of relief TEMPORARILY but the problems will still be there and on top of that you will have the pain (physical and emotional) of treating yourself badly.

What you need to do it GET HELP for these problems, and that may mean getting help for the way you feel first, so that you can see and deal with your problems in a more constructive way.

dp if you are feeling so badly and your parents won't help, please call a crisis hotline and tell them what is going on or call your local ER or mental health facility.

[LMo]

[SeptemberMorn]

Deb, you need to get HELP for yourself, not hurt yourself. Someone mentioned your parents. If you are under age, that's the first place you NEED to go. I can't imagine any parent knowing their child having such problems and NOT doing something about it. If they won't help, then go to your teachers at school. There is NO DOUBT a psychologist or councelor you can go to for help.

If you're an adult, get yourself to the nearest mental health clinic! There's NO NEED for you to suffer alone. You really DO NEED SOME CONTROL OVER YOUSELF AND YOUR FEELINGS! There's only so much we can do here being on the other side of a monitor.

If you want ADVICE, there you have it.

I answered another one of your posts and you said that one of your therapists doesn't give you advise. Maybe he was a PSYCHIATRIST. They don't give ADVICE, they just listen to you to see what meds you need to be on. Keep talking to him, too.

You say "don't mind me." But we DO MIND. We're here to give support, not to ignore someone with problems. If most of us give you support or you ask for advise and we give it but you don't do anything for yourself, well then, it gets quite old and the support and advice go away.

Maybe you could try JOURNALING for a lot your venting if you don't particularly want attention. You can let out a lot of feelings when you journal. It's also helpful to go back to when you feel better or when you feel yourself start to slip again. Reading your journal will help you identify feelings or actions that tell you that you need more help.

Hope this helps some.

[jagster]

Im so sorry you had such a rough night. I hope today bring you a little happiness.

[lenjan]

Take Sept's words to heart, dear. They're very wise.