Sexuality...confused

g'day everyone,
I'm Nick, I'm 15 and I'm from Brisbane, Australia

My problem is this...

For awhile now, I have been consumed by the thought that I'm a paedophile (Before I go any further, I just want to clarify that I feel a sexual relationship with a child is physically, emotionally and morally wrong). I've just had this platonic attraction to boys my age and younger. What makes this more akward is that I am still somewhat sexually attracted to females although unlike most people my age, I really don't want to be in a relationship with one (I do, however have quite a few female friends). My upbringing is and has been normal, I've got plenty of great friends but this feeling that I'm different is really consuming everything and everyday just feels like a blur. I know in future I want to get married and have children of my own (peferably boys) but I just find it unusual that I have these feelings and I really just want to be like other guys my age. I'm currently taking Talohexal for depression.

Anyway, I hope you kinda get what I'm trying to say.

Cheers,
Nikko

Hi Nikko, I'm so glad you are asking for input at your young age.... an age where everything is up in the air as far as knowing who you are in relationsip to the world. Rampaging hormones, and who knows what images from the media and your cultural environment....... it's you job, as it were, to sort the whole lot out. Pick and choose what to try, what to discard, where you "draw your lines in the sand"....
I'm so very glad you have no interest in becoming a pedophile. My dad was one and I'm still paying the price.
Theoretically, we are born bisexual, open to loving whomever we connect with whenever we connect. So, feeling attractions to girls AND boys your age is not unusual.
Have you access to couseling? Someone to help you sort the jumble of your feelings? Thank you for reaching out here, very good first step. I'm proud of you.

Thanks for the reply

Its just crazy. I keep having these thoughts that I am. The massive negativity the label brings sometimes just makes me fell like I'm a terrible person (simply because I have this notion).
I do have access to counselling, and I think its time I took advntage :P

thanks again,

nikko

ah yes, now i remember you, nikko. you weren't a pedophile the last time you were here obsessing that you were, either.

perhaps you need to investigate why you are obsessed with believing things that have no basis in fact,

I agree that at your age, you can't trust some of your feelings. As for the sexual --- confusion--- much of that can be blamed on hormones (which are raging or about to, in your body.) Part of maturing is knowing right from wrong and acting on the right, and not on the wrong. It would be good to find someone IRL to confide in, an adult, who can help you sort out these thoughts and feelings. Before you act on any feelings that are in conflict with what you know to be right, ask someone for help IRL... take care

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ah yes, now i remember you, nikko. you weren't a pedophile the last time you were here obsessing that you were, either.

perhaps you need to investigate why you are obsessed with believing things that have no basis in fact,

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I've never been here before....some real supportive people here.

Unfortunately, I do have a basis for my belif. That's why I'm here, for guidance. I feel an attraction to boys that are younger than I, I have no attraction to males older than me but I do still have a "normal" functioning attraction to females.