[SeptemberMorn]

Not sure what happened at the grocery store a bit ago, but at any rate, something told me I've just about had enough of everything that's been going on. Sorta feeling as if I've "depersonalized" but not really? I don't know.

Maybe I just need to go hide in my cave or something. Don't feel like I can or want to deal with much of anything... not even finish taking the sheets off my bed to wash them.

So... ya'll take care of yourselves, think of me... Hell! I don't even know if I'm gonna take a break from here or not... Mostly just letting you know that I've had it for a while.

Love all of you!!

[SS8282]

((((((((((((((((Tomi)))))))))))))))))))))) I certainly will be thinking good thoughts for you. Hope you feel better soon.

[jmo531]

Mama,

I am sorry your feeling like this. You know I am here for you.

Maybe its time for you to kick back and relax and be good to yourself. Look out for #1. You need time to chill and not have to deal with anything. Just be good to you.

Thinking of you


Love,

Jen

[Lexicon78]

I'm sorry you are feeling so crappy right now. We're all here for you when you need us.

Hang in there and take care!

[jbug]

(((((Sept)))))) Get to feeling better soon. You will be missed while you're gone.

Jbug

[bipolar_bear]

((((((((((((((tomi)))))))))))))) I will be thinking about you. It sounds like you are doing what is best for you. Please take care of yourself. I hope you find some relief soon.

[Beautiful_Pain]

{{{{{{Tomi}}}}}}

You do what you need to, hun!

[eskielover]

Tomi,

Will PM you......seems like we are going through similar things right now.

Take care of you & please know that you can call me if you need to chat about anything....I'm here for you,
Debbie

[SeptemberMorn]

Remind me... does Depression cause extreme mood swings, forgetfulness, anger, not being able to deal with everyday problems and confusion... or do you think it might be something worse?? Jerry is really freaking me out!!! Maybe it's the fact that we're both experiencing these things at the same time?? Only thing is, I don't go into sudden fits of rage, like he does...

[January]

Oh Tomi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

((((((((((((((((( Tomi ))))))))))))))))

I'm so sorry that you're going through this. Maybe you just need to relax for a couple days. Maybe you need to call the doc and see if you need meds adjusted? Of course, I don't know if you take meds, but just in case......?

Be good to yourself right now. You give so much to everyone else. Let us give to you for a while.

Love you!

Jan

[SeptemberMorn]

{{{{{{{{{{{SS, Jen, Lexi, Jannie, BP Bear, BP}}}}}}}}}}

Thanks, you guys for not tiring of hearing from me... I'm not really sure what's going on. Common sense tells me it's all the stuff that I've been going through in the last month or so and without meds. I tend to repress feelings, so, like I told someone... my gullet got full, I guess...

Speaking of meds, I finally got my Celexa today! What a relief! Just so you know... I might get even weirder on you. LOL

[January]

Tomi, depression can cause those symptoms. Other things can, too, but depression can do it. I wish you could tell Jerry to take an extended vacation......

(Hoping I have not once again put foot in mouth....)

Love,

Jan

[SeptemberMorn]

{{{{{{{{{{{{Debbie}}}}}}}}}}}}}}!!!!!!! I've been thinking alot about you, Hun! Doesn't sound like your hunky dorey, eh? I'm so sorry!! Maybe we can be miserable together... errrrg...

Did you read... no you probably didn't... John's "incubus" had the baby early. He's doing okay, thank God! Everyone here prayed so hard for him!

I'll wait for your PM... but you've got me #, don't forget. Yeah... I know. I've got yours, too. Just don't want to add to your grief right now.

I love you, though!!!

[SeptemberMorn]

My dear goofball! You could never put your foot in your mouth as far as I'm concerned.

Yeah, I'd like to tell Jerry to take an extended vacation, but I'd worry about him too much! It would be worse having him where I can't see him.

I'm gonna make like him, though, and take as many naps as I can. Not gonna go to the hospital tomorrow and instead play with my plants. That's good therapy, usually.

OY.....!!!! I hate getting like this!!

[jmo531]

Tomi,

You have had alot of activity this last month. I am alot like you, I have a delayed stress reaction. You just now getting back on your meds and you know how that can take a few weeks to even out. I just think its high time you took some time for you and chill. You really do deserve it, ya know. We are here, not going anywhere .

Please pm me for anything, even a big long vent. OK?

Love,

Jen

[nothemama8]

Hoooo weeeeeeee girl with all the crap goin on with you it's a wonder ya didn't crash earlier, as ya see I'm up wayyyyyyyyyy to early and am in rapid rocket speed right now so just want ya to know sit back, breathe deeply and take time for YOU
Angie

hi dear friend....sorry to hear that you are going through a rough time but surely can be expected after all you've been through..i have a feeling that its all caught up with you...and i know that you've just restarted your meds......try to relax.....take things slow.....try not to let jerry get to you (hard as that may be..lol).....remember we all handle things differently even jerry...lol....focus on the good.....that baby for one thing.....and know that in time the dust will settle....it always does...try to remember that......and..........with all my holiday eating...i'm even a softer place to fall...smile.....love you julia.....if you need ANYTHING.....i'm here.....

[darkeyes]

Hey there,
Sept, I think this is the results of long term stress, by the way you say you are feeling. I would almost bet this is the reason for most of this stuff. After all, the body and mind become emotionally and physically drained, long term stress and/or depression can do this, even messes with our immune system.
This sounds like you need "Tomi time", spend time alone with your hobbies, pets, reading,meditate,etc. anything that you like to do. I always find that a few days or a few hours in the day, alone helps re-plenish the soul, the core of our being. You have been through a lot of stuff over the past few months, you need some time for things to fall back in place or even to bypass stuff for your own sanity.
Please take care now,
DE

(((((((((((( SeptembermMorn ))))))))))

[hillbunnyb]

Hey Septy, crash and burn time of year. I'm thinking good thoughts to you. Playing with plants sounds like a great idea. I have one that needs repotting myself. I guess we all just need a little more space...... take care.

[January]

Take your naps, and indeed, work with your plants. Gardening, even out of pots, is so theraputic. Keep Jerry if you want, but the flamigo is jealous!

Hugs,

Your goofball!

[SeptemberMorn]

Thanks, Sweetheart! It's good to know I'm not alone. It's been quite a while since I had a "shut down" like I did last night. At the dumbest thing did it! The lights actually did dim in the store but my stressed out brain thought it was her! YIKES! As usual, I thought I was having a stroke. My biggest fear of all. Then come the damned thoughts you don't want or need. You know how that goes.

I'm much better day. Went to bed early and slept in. But knowing you're there and that you're just a PM or email away helps like you wouldn't beleive! Be careful what you ask for! LOL

[SeptemberMorn]

Angie says "Sit back and breath... sit back and breath... sit back and breath..." Yeah! Just what the doctor would have ordered.

Hey! Bottle some of that energy and send it my way, would you??

[SeptemberMorn]

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Maybe that part of what's keeping me upset as the days go by and the "incubus" gets out of the hospital. The dust MAY settle if she ALLOWS it to... until the next time she feels like it. Then she'll take the kids, including the baby, away from me. It's the prospect of that, that is wearing on me. I can't play her games anymore... and I won't. So if I won't, I'll lose the kids for good. I've already lost one set of grandsons because of their mother's irrational thinking. If I do play her games, my sanity and my integrity are compromised. Can't win for losing!! Maybe you have some ideas on this?? Anybody??

[SeptemberMorn]

Thanks, Roe! I really needed to be reminded of these things. It's been a while since I've been this bad. May I borrow your place under that tree in your yard and do you think I could rub your favorite frog's back?? Sounds like paradise to me about now!

Alone time... without Jerry and without having to worry about what HE'S going through and doing... Sounds wonderful!! No thought of kids, grandkids, wicked in-laws... (Deep breath!!)

[darkeyes]

You are welcomed to my "teeny" world of local nature.
I am sure my friendly toads are now in hibranation (sp?) even my 2 dogs cut their outdoor time (potty time) a tad, though the mice capture their curiosity (2am when I am ready to crash in bed) but all in all, this stuff helps me filter out the stuff that de-rails me or has the capability
to set me off my tracks. Low and behold, this "stuff" is going to have quite a battle with me, for some unknown reason, I feel strong enough to say "no" to those things and people that want to rob me of my special time(s).
Okay, to be honest, I do not have any idea of what I may be talking about, but my whole attitude has changed (for now) towards the living and the dead, and I plan to follow what lies before me than to second guess it all.
Duh? No, Roe is not making sense? Guess, one had or has to be here (my 3d) to understand my gist.
Take care,
Roe