[FloatLikeAButterfly]

I know you can't write back to me, or give me any feedback- but i am still going to send my thoughts and feelings out to you in the universe. Why are you so difficult? I am a mere teen and i already know you are stubborn, upsetting, cruel, inconsiderate, and just downright hard to deal with. Why?
Innocent and genuine people are put through Heck, and do you care?- probably not. I'll admit, you have some beautiful things about you- but in the end the bad deffinatly overpowers and overwhelms the good.
You take people's lives Life, many before they are ready, many painfully- what do you get out of it?
People are starving, disease-stricken, filled with pain, and sadness, and longing- people are being raped and tortured- and they are good and tender souls. Why not hurt the ones whose ultimate goal in life is to inflict pain on others, who love to be bad, and do immoral deeds?
Why not them?
Now i admit some of the inner turmoil, life expirences, and illnesses i or the ones i love have expirienced i wouldnt wish on anyone- not even my worst enemy.
But thinking these- are all in vain. Nothing i can do will change these things.
APPARENTLY, Life, you are supposed to be hard- because if we survive you, there will eiter be a far better you, of far worse you after we leave. Ashaim isnt it? We all have to wait, normally a long time before things get easier, peaceful, simple, and at resst.
Eventually all the hardships, and sadnesses, worries, fears, restrictions, let-downs, and pain all builds up- untill one literally cannot take any more of you.
Life......why?

[RunningEagleRuns]

Originally Posted by FloatLikeAButterfly

I know you can't write back to me, or give me any feedback- but i am still going to send my thoughts and feelings out to you in the universe. Why are you so difficult? I am a mere teen and i already know you are stubborn, upsetting, cruel, inconsiderate, and just downright hard to deal with. Why?
Innocent and genuine people are put through Heck, and do you care?- probably not. I'll admit, you have some beautiful things about you- but in the end the bad deffinatly overpowers and overwhelms the good.
You take people's lives Life, many before they are ready, many painfully- what do you get out of it?
People are starving, disease-stricken, filled with pain, and sadness, and longing- people are being raped and tortured- and they are good and tender souls. Why not hurt the ones whose ultimate goal in life is to inflict pain on others, who love to be bad, and do immoral deeds?
Why not them?
Now i admit some of the inner turmoil, life expirences, and illnesses i or the ones i love have expirienced i wouldnt wish on anyone- not even my worst enemy.
But thinking these- are all in vain. Nothing i can do will change these things.
APPARENTLY, Life, you are supposed to be hard- because if we survive you, there will eiter be a far better you, of far worse you after we leave. Ashaim isnt it? We all have to wait, normally a long time before things get easier, peaceful, simple, and at resst.
Eventually all the hardships, and sadnesses, worries, fears, restrictions, let-downs, and pain all builds up- untill one literally cannot take any more of you.
Life......why?

Wow. Sounds like something I would write. I'm guessing we have a lot in common. Whats your diagnosis? I've been diagnosed with schizophrenia and schizo/affective.

[FloatLikeAButterfly]

Well, I know i have generalized anxiety disorder, and panic disorder-but also have ocd, depression, and probaly social axiety.

[RunningEagleRuns]

Wow. Hope you get much better.

[venusss]

Life is beautiful despite all its darkness. You know not pretty... but beautiful. A miracle. The bad times make us grow and appreciate the good times. We feel more alive then...

I believe in reincarnation... so all the hardships are mere lessons for us to learn. There is value in suffering. No cheating on your karma.

[SoupDragon]

We get to know ourselves most deeply in times of darkness. We find the weak places but also the strong, the pain and the ability to empathise, the fear but also the kindness of others. We learn to live our life with compassion and consideration and that contributes to making our planet more beautiful.

[pachyderm]

Life is to make what we can make of it, in spite of it all!

[FloatLikeAButterfly]

you guys are right i guess (:

[Open Eyes]

"Life is beautiful despite all its darkness. You know not pretty... but beautiful. A miracle. The bad times make us grow and appreciate the good times. We feel more alive then..."

Someone has to speak these words, "SOMEONE HAS TO DO IT"

Good words to speak.

Open Eyes

[madisgram]

flaby, i hear your pain. i'm sorry you so young have so much suffering. once i felt as you did now. helpless and hopeless. after seeking all the help i could find, i got better. it took work, sometimes painful work. but today i can refect back and i'm so glad i fought for the life i deserved. i know it takes so much mental energy but do the best you can each day. don't beat yourself up on the days most bleak. just keep your eye on the future and blindly believe if need be. i hope we can offer you support that helps.
my signature below in blue type helped me not lose hope.

[Panda_Girl_17]

Yesterday I was listening to the radio, and the DJ read this quote;

"You have to take the good with the bad, smile with the sad, love what you got, remember what you had, always forgive but never forget, learn from your mistakes but never regret. People change, things go wrong, but just remember life goes on."

[FloatLikeAButterfly]

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[Panda_Girl_17]

Hey!

How is everything?

[Wysteria]

Dear Floats like a Butterfly,

I've read your post with interest, and although I can't speak for Life, I hope you don't mind if I speak from my own heart. You seem to be gifted with a sensitive heart and gentle soul. These are gifts that need to be cherished and protected. And if the world around you cannot do it as it should, then you will have to learn how to do it for yourself until such time that freedom and joy and love abound and the walls are no longer needed to such a degree..

There was a man by the name of Victor Frankl. He lived during the time of the Jewish holocaust. He was taken by the Nazis and imprisoned and endured the very worst conditions, the beatings, the starvation, the degredation, the cold and the loss of family and friends to the dreaded concentration camps and gas chambers. He certainly had every reason to rail against Life and the unfair and cruel conditions and inhumanity all around him. He CHOSE to protect the one and only thing that was truly his. His view of the world, and the way he could look at what was happening to him. He could not control even one thing about his physical existence, but he COULD choose his outlook on life. I invite you to read his book. It is truly inspiring and considered one of the best books ever written.

I also encourage you to seek beauty and inspiration in every facebook page you can find, every inspirational quote page, read about the wonders of the world, and continue to reach for the stars every day. One hard lesson that I learned, was that there are tons of people out there that want to help you...but I was always either too proud, or too shy or too naive to know that they were truly there. I hope you will learn this lesson much earlier than I did and reach out everyday for the help and guidance that you need and to offer inspiration to those around you that also need it as well. Butterflies are magical creatures and when they alight on your knee or shoulder...it is said you are blessed. You are very much a blessing and I hope you will never forget how very special and loving you are..

Look up..or you will miss the rainbow...

Wysteria Blue

[FloatLikeAButterfly]

panda girl- im alright....been feeling more dark than usual....but hanging in there (:

wysteria thank you ! i know, i force myself to think about those who have it worse, because there are plenty! i will find that book, because when i am thinking about others strenth and faith in the worst of times i dont think about how i have it. theres always someone worseoff out there.
You made me feel, so special! thank you, your kind words of wisdom will stick with me forever. Bless you(: