[demolitionlover]

Took an overdose of sleeping pills, spent a night in hospital before being transferred two hours down the road to a Psychiatric Hospital. As the bells rang twelve i was being hugged and kissed by nurses and all sorts of people with horrid problems.

I was fortunate to be allowed home on promising i would not do something so silly again, get a job and somewhere to live and learn to love myself.

I am going to try my very hardest, that place, or any place like it is not somewhere i want to be again, and i feel for the people who gave me so much support whilst dealing with their own misfortunes, and giving me guidance. I feel sorry that they can not be let out again into the world as i have been, anytime soon.

I see clearly, that this is all i have, and if i want more i have to put my dreams into perspective and strive to get at it. I understand i will feel so terrible again, maybe even worse, but i think i have the strength to use whatever situation and experience for what it is and not let life drag me to suicide ever again.

[bipolar_bear]

I am so sorry that you felt you had no other alternative on New Years Eve. However, it appears that it may have some positive results in how you are planning on organinzing your life and certainly on your approach to handling your problems in the future. It is unfortunate that sometimes it is something so drastic as this that makes us see how our skewed our thinking can be at times and how desructive our thinking has become. I am so happy you found yourself in an environment which encouraged you to evaluate your life and to support you into coming up with the beginnings of an action plan. i hope that this year brings fruition to your new life skills and you find yourself in a totally different frame of mind next new years eve.

i applaud you for the strength you are drawing from your bad experience.......best of luck to you......if you ever need an ear or a shoulder....i'm here for you

Im with you. Been in mental health units three times and I will never go back. I don't care how hard things get. It can't be worse then what I went through on those units and if it is worse and my brain is allowing it to come to the surface then its time to work on it not take my life because of it.

Chosing to battle for sanity over death is a hard choice and yes the road ahead of you may get real rocky at times but I can tell you from experience its worth it. And I am happy for you that you have made the choice to live and fight it.

Find that one dream or goal you want to reach and grab on tight and never forget what you just went though and you can and will make it no matter how rocky the road gets. Take care.

[Lexicon78]

I'm sorry you felt the need to overdose. It really does feel terrible. I've been in and out of psych hospitals for a long time...I think my total is up to 10 now, but I know how unpleasant it can be.

Hang in there and take care.

[January]

I am so sorry for the pain you have endured and for what happened. It seems though that you have learned what to do and have really put your life in perspective. You seem on the right path now and I think you will do fine.

Always remember we are here for you.

Hugs,

Jan

[(JD)]

Good to see you posting again demo. I'm glad you really want to live; what a good thing to realize at the beginning of a new year too! Take care.

[demolitionlover]

ARRRRRGHHH!
I lied to you all. I lied to them so they would let me home. Now it's all worse. Just had a lecture from the GP about telling the truth else i can't get better. This is SO %#@&#! HARD.
I am seriously lost, and i tell you something, if they ever trusted me enough to hand out pills to me again, ever, i'd do it all again.