[xxKaneLovesZoexx]

Hello,
For the last 10 years I’ve been having problems with my emotions & moods. I unfortunately lost my dad due to an overdose (Suicide) and ever since I’ve not been right. I don’t like talking/thinking too much about my moods.
So my moods consist from sudden rage of anger, sadness & guilt. Not to forget paranoia of course. I used to be enjoy doing sports, I could/would go outside every day and play football or basketball for about 4 hours. I used to go out and do things and be with my friends. Now I just would rather sit in bed and watch Tv

People find me strange because of attitude towards life. I simply do not care if I live or die. I stopped caring when my Dad passed away. I always think “What’s the point?” I have a girlfriend, so she’s my reason to live. Other than that, I don’t know any other reasons to live. I could say something really funny (People obviously find it funny) I would keep a straight face and they would be laughing. I seem to of lost my sense of humor. Everything is just so doom and gloom for me.

My moods are rather unpredictable really. I can be fine one second, and then slowly change, and when I have changed, it will be there for days. Then all over a sudden I’ll be something different. It’s taken me years to even consider taking herbal remedies from off the counter. I always say “Yeah... I’ll make an appointment with the doctor tomorrow.” Then tomorrow comes and I’ll feel fine so I’ll put it off and say “I’ll be fine” and then it goes on. I’ve had attempted many suicide attempts throughout my life. My dad was Bipolar, he had a rough birth which caused that. Any ideas what this could more or less be?

[Open Eyes]

Well, none of us here can diagnose you. I am so sorry about your loss of your dad.
Are you seeing a therapist? I think it is important that you find help and get a diagnosis and some therapy to help you work through this. Please get help with this, the fact that you have SI in the past means that you need professional help. Perhaps if your dad had sought treatment he could have dealt better with his illness. And if he had it would have been better for you. Losing a parent that way is very difficult for any person and should be addressed in therapy.

Open Eyes

[xxKaneLovesZoexx]

Originally Posted by Open Eyes

Well, none of us here can diagnose you. I am so sorry about your loss of your dad.
Are you seeing a therapist? I think it is important that you find help and get a diagnosis and some therapy to help you work through this. Please get help with this, the fact that you have SI in the past means that you need professional help. Perhaps if your dad had sought treatment he could have dealt better with his illness. And if he had it would have been better for you. Losing a parent that way is very difficult for any person and should be addressed in therapy.

Open Eyes

I've seen over 7 people in the 10 years. Most was brought by school or college. I'm trying very hard to get hard to get help. What disorder does this sound more like? I'd like to do research on this.

[Open Eyes]

Oh, hasn't anyone diagnosed you out of those 7 people? What have you been told thus far?

I cannot really pinpoint for you what it could be, there are similar symptoms to different disorders and that wouldn't help you and would be wrong of me to send you hunting for information on something that you may not even have. And no one here can truely diagnose you, that is really up to a professional. Basically the members here have different diagnoses already and they find support when they discuss the difficulty of what ever it is they are struggling with.

I hope you will make the effort to get the right diagnosis from a professional, that really is what you need to do.

Open Eyes

[xxKaneLovesZoexx]

They were basically relief workers.

[Open Eyes]

Oh, then you really need to find a therapist or pdoc that can diagnose you. You really deserve to do this for yourself. Hey, pretty much everyone here has done that. I did that myself and I was diagnosed with PTSD. Gee, if I didn't do that and have therapy I would really be in bad shape.

I am sure that losing your father that way was and is very hard on you, it would be for anyone and leaves many different questions. You need to find a good therapist that you can talk to about this because you're still struggling with this.

Really, whatever you do, get on the net or even call your regular doctor and find a therapist. You probably should get a check up with your GP to make sure your not dealing with a physical issue as well. You don't deserve to live and feel this way, you CAN get better with help and even put your mind at ease.

(((((Hugs))))))
Open Eyes