I dunno but I'm crying. It all started when I kept thinking of how people have jobs and I sent my boyfriend a message on facebook but he didn't reply. I just feel annoyed. I wish I could let all this anger out. I'm sorry, I am pathetic and I need to die. How can people get jobs and I can't? I even tried to volunteer but I haven't been phoned. I've been emailed but it's taking a long time and the woman is trying to see whether there are vacancies. I don't know why the heck I bother sometimes. I might as well overdose and just pass away. I don't like living on this pain suffering earth. I even have a hatred for people who rejected when I went to the interview. I think they're bastards. So I won't bother trying to get a job. I just suffer!!! No one wants me :'( I'm shy and horrible. Why should I be on this earth? I am jealous of people having a job. urghh! I hate this feeling! I wish I died or something...

On the plus side, I have applied to volunteer for samaritations. I would like to help people. I guess that's one positive thing.

[kindachaotic]

(((((((Happycheeks))))))). So sorry you're feeling so down & discouraged.
Are you safe right now? Or is this the way you feel about your situation & maybe rejection?
Don't give up on the job search & most importantly don't give up on yourself!!!
Do you have support, family, friends other than your bf?
Have you seen T or pdoc lately or maybe need a med tweak?
Really hate to see you suffer so, to think you feel useless, which is not the case!
Getting these things off your chest can really help, talking to us here in cyberspace.
I'm no great voice of wisdom, just someone that cares!
Keep posting & let us know you are safe!

Originally Posted by kindachaotic

(((((((Happycheeks))))))). So sorry you're feeling so down & discouraged.
Are you safe right now? Or is this the way you feel about your situation & maybe rejection?
Don't give up on the job search & most importantly don't give up on yourself!!!
Do you have support, family, friends other than your bf?
Have you seen T or pdoc lately or maybe need a med tweak?
Really hate to see you suffer so, to think you feel useless, which is not the case!
Getting these things off your chest can really help, talking to us here in cyberspace.
I'm no great voice of wisdom, just someone that cares!
Keep posting & let us know you are safe!

Thanks. I am safe but I feel moody. I just feel sad because of rejection. I don't really have any other support. I'm on my own really. I'm on meds either.

[Christine08]

Oh please don’t cry or feel sad . Are you feeling any better? It’s hard to get through those thoughts but I don’t want you to do anything so you feel like it PME anytime and can talk about anything that you want. Don’t get sad to not find a job, you just have to keep trying and while that make things that gives you joy like volunteer. Try multiple institutions and not only one so you can get an answer. I know it can be so exhausting to try and try and not getting a job but sometimes it requires a little patient so please don’t be sad or cry, because you have so much value in you and they are the only ones who lose for nothing choosing you, remember that.
Hugs to you If I could I would give you a real one but I’m too far so this will have to do.

Originally Posted by Christine08

Oh please don’t cry or feel sad . Are you feeling any better? It’s hard to get through those thoughts but I don’t want you to do anything so you feel like it PME anytime and can talk about anything that you want. Don’t get sad to not find a job, you just have to keep trying and while that make things that gives you joy like volunteer. Try multiple institutions and not only one so you can get an answer. I know it can be so exhausting to try and try and not getting a job but sometimes it requires a little patient so please don’t be sad or cry, because you have so much value in you and they are the only ones who lose for nothing choosing you, remember that.
Hugs to you If I could I would give you a real one but I’m too far so this will have to do.

Thank you for being so nice. I understand what you are saying. I am feeling better now.

[Christine08]

Originally Posted by happycheeks

Thank you for being so nice. I understand what you are saying. I am feeling better now.

I'm glad for that Better days will come. Keep fighting.

[venusss]

Maybe try some requalification course to get extra skillzzz? At least it would give you something to occupy your mind with. I must say that tourguide course might as well saved my life some time ago.

Originally Posted by VenusHalley

Maybe try some requalification course to get extra skillzzz? At least it would give you something to occupy your mind with. I must say that tourguide course might as well saved my life some time ago.

It's an idea but I'm not sure what to do really.

Originally Posted by Christine08

I'm glad for that Better days will come. Keep fighting.

I hope so

Originally Posted by TheByzantine

Thank you