I never said I wasnt nuts or impulsive

I guess that is why I am here, right?

This last week has been hell. I wont lie about that. Honestly, the last few months, having family in and out of town and leaving it has me homesick as hell and I cant take another minute of it.

Soooooooooooooooooo, I put my house on the market and I am going back home as soon as it sells.

I know, I know, I just moved here in August and I moved 1600 miles from my home and I am a %#@&#! up and should have thought about this before moving. Yeah, I know all that. Beleive me, this has been playing over and over again in my mind and I have come to the conclusion, that no matter where I run, I am always there.

Moving here to me was not a mistake but an experience. I love the weather, and the city is absolutly breath taking. It just isnt home. It just isnt home.

I feel like I am such a %#@&#! idiot for this.

I moved here because spiritually, I needed to know that there was more out there then what I have seen, which wasnt much. I miss my home. My mother, my step father and brother and sister. I miss my inlaws. I miss my italian resturant that is family owed and every time I walked in there they knew me, my hubby and kids. I miss the snow. I miss the rain. I miss the traffic.

I hope it sells and goes smooth your hubby is pretty cool cause many would say no way not now...Home is home I agree

Home is where the heart is......

There's no place like home. ((((((((((hugs)))))))

Hi Jen,

I'm not at all surprised, Jen. Life is hard for people with anxiety disorders and we don't have a lot of security within ourselves.

You mentioned your family so many times in your posts, especially your Mum, that it was obvious you were hurting.

This is just a suggestion, so feel free to ignore me, but you are probably in the grip of 'all or nothing thinking' at the moment. Would it be possible to go back for an extended visit, rather than do the house move straight away?

I've never been very good at compromises when the anxiety is happening, but I have always wished that I could compromise.

Good thoughts,

M

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jmo531 said:I know, I know, I just moved here in August and I moved 1600 miles from my home and I am a %#@&#! up and should have thought about this before moving. Yeah, I know all that. Beleive me, this has been playing over and over again in my mind and I have come to the conclusion, that no matter where I run, I am always there.

Moving here to me was not a mistake but an experience. I love the weather, and the city is absolutly breath taking. It just isnt home. It just isnt home.


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Focus on the latter. If you know it wasn't a mistake, then why beat yourself up and call yourself an idiot.

Some might see it as being someone who is adventurous, and admire the courage it takes to make a change like that.

And also admire the courage it takes to realize it was not the right thing, and instead of just being miserable, going back and starting again.

Someone said, "there's no place like home." But if you remember, Glenda told her she had the power to get home all the time. She had to go through the experience just to learn it.

And if anyone had called Dorothy an idiot, and if she had never done what she did to end up back home (with a better appreciation of it) we wouldn't have that wonderful story and movie that gives so much joy.

I'm one of the ones who admires you taking that chance. I wish I had the guts to do it myself.

I made a change like that, and ended up in a horrible place, and have not had the strength, courage or money to get out. You should be applauded!

Jmo,

Your leaving Texas!!!!!!! Man, I thought I could rope anonther one in to this state.....ha ha ha I am kidding!

I understand being homesick... it will make you physically sick if you let it... You arent an idiot. you took a step and moved 1400 miles away froim everything you have known.... you had the chance to see a very interesting city, some people have no idea what they are missing... I am proud of you for having the courage to move that far away...... I moved only four hours away from my mom and cried every day for 3 months before she couldnt handle it and moved to the same city. I am not sure i could move that far away from my family and everything i am familiar with.

Dont feel bad or guilty... you thave been here, dont that and now you wanna go home....... I hope you have no problems with your house selling and can get home as soon as you can...

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( that an extra big hug just for you)

"Moving here to me was not a mistake, but an experience"

This is what you need to focus on. There are times in life when all we can do is try our best to focus on the good aspects, and what we can learn from the experience. Quit putting yourself down.

You've got some perspective now, and you know what's out there in the world. Now you know how much more the little things about where you used to live mean to you, and there's absolutely nothing wrong with that. Some people with anxiety disorders rarely leave the house, so you should be proud of yourself for being so brave.

I hope the house sells smoothly, and everything goes well.

Good luck, PM me any time if you need someone to talk to.

Take Care,
Andy

I've had the same problem all my life so I've never really lived very far from my family...at times I've just lived with family! But I guess being close to your family is most important....at least it is to me! I know how it feels. All my life I've either lived near at least one of my parents...I moved 2 houses down from my mom but when she died, I moved to a place 6 miles from my dad. I never like leaving my roots.

Thank you all. I have to say WOW because I was expecting a "I told you so" or a scolding of some sort.

The house listed on MLS today so I am hoping to get some traffic through here. I can hardley wait to be home again. You have no idea how bad I want to hug my mother right now. It brings tears to my eyes just thinking about it. I love her so much. I just want to be near her.

I dont care where I live, house, townhouse, condo or apartment. As long as I am home with my family and friends.

You dont know what you got until its gone.

The grass is greener on the other side.

Be careful what you wish for, you just might get it.

All of the above.

JMO you won't be closer to that dude will you? I hope not but I miss home and have no home to speak of..I have a house

Sleeps,

Yes, that is where "he" lives too. I know what your thinking. Please dont . No scolding.

I just want to go home. Northern VA is a huge place. That is where I have been my whole life. I want to go back.

I am not scolding just worried that the minute he went home you wanted to move back Unless I missed a post by you on wanting to move back before that

No

I have been really sad about being here. When the inlaws visited I cried when they left. When "J" came, and then he left. It is harder and harder saying goodbye.

I am not happy here. I dont think I will be happy here. I want to go home. I want to go back to what I know. Whats comfortable. Whats familier. Seeing "J" just reminded me of home and all I was missing.

All I am gonna say , is JUST BE CAREFUL and really LOOK at why over time. I am not trying to debate you and thus will not come back but I am concerned on this a LOT

I know sleeps. I am thinking. I just cant be here anymore. I need my family.

JMo... I have such mixed feelings about this

All I can say is that I want you to be happy, so if this makes you happy, then go for it. It would be great if you could stick it out a little longer, though... great just for what has been for me a good experience of pushing myself beyond my comfort level. However, you're smart and when you're done, you're done, and I know that you'll make the right decision.

Thank you LMo.

I do keep going back and forth in my head wondering if I am making the right decision. The answer is...I dont know. I do know that I miss my family and my home.
I will say that having "J" around hasnt made the decision any easier. But, I would never uproot my entire family for that reason alone.

I know, LMo. I hope I am doing the right thing here

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M.

((Jmo)) I know you are wanting to pack up and leave like yesterday. I hope you are back home quickly.
Don't think of it as making a mistake. And you certainly are not an idiot.
You took a chance on TX...and realized VA is for Lovers... Besides, who wants to live in a State that Bush owns???
I hope the house sells quickly and you are back home before Spring.

There is a possibility we may move in the near future. I dread it too, Jen. I'm glad you're doing what makes you happy. That's more important than just about anything. Good luck with the move.

Now if I go visit Tech, I can swing through NoVA and see you.

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Thank you. I appreciate all of you so much.

Huggles,

Jen