having what I want/wanting what I have

I posted in one of the other forums, can't remember which, that I've been having a case of the megrims the last few months. I've just been unhappy with my life. It's not depression rearing it's ugly head. I jst was unhappy, pretty much about everything in my life.

I've been putting a lot of thought into the feeling the last week. I've been unhappy because my life consists of dragging out of bed in the morning, going to work, come home in the evening and crash on the sofa until bedtime. Go to bed, drag myself out of bed... repeat five days a week. Sleep 12 -15 hours a night on the weekends. I should explain, I have two medical conditions that cause extreme pain and exhaustion. The fatigue is NOT from depression.

I was royally PO'd that this is all my life was. I wanted more. Then I made myself stop and identify what I want in life. Things I came up with were - in no particular order - a job I love, spening time with friends, cuddle time with my fur babies, reading and time for my crafts. I had to yank myself up short when I realized that's what I have in life right now! I have a job I love. I spend time daily with my furbabies. I get together with friends once or twice a week. I read every day. I work on my crafts in the evenings.

This lead me to wonder why if I have what I want in life I've been dissatisfied. On one hand I told myself to stop complaining and acknowledge what I do have. In other words, I have what I want so learn to appreciate that.

At the same time, I'm sick and tired of being exhausted all the time. I think some of my dissatisfaction comes from the fact that the exhaustion has taken away my chance to chose to do something else in life.

lady, it sounds like your dx re exhaustion n pain might not be treated as best it can b? idk, but our vision of our world, imo, is very important. we all need to feel self-fulfilled. also it may be helpful to explore these feelings with a T. i felt this way once-re no hope, etc-with a T. it help me immensely getting to the reasons i felt this way. glad u posted. hope my reply may be useful or something to chew on.

Your post reminds me of the old Rolling Stones song....You can't always get what you want, but if you try sometime you get what you need. I tell myself this over and over. Looking a madisgram's signature also got me. What seems to us as bitter trials are often blessings in disguise~Oscar Wilde. Maybe what you need is just a little change in the routine! My best to you!

Sounds like you left out wanting hope, adventure, and magic

Madisgram, you are right about my exhaustion not being treated best as possible. On top of my fibro and CFS I have a raging sinus infection and bronchitis. Saw my primary care doc a couple of weeks ago. I go back again tomorrow. LAst time I saw her I mentioned the exhaustion and told her we need to do something about it.
Your reply was definitely helpful!

I'm working on changing my attitude instead of changing routine. I'm too exhausted to do anything more than I have been. Thanks for the reply.

Bronchitis is exhausting. You can't breathe! And it takes a while to feel better after it. Chicken soup chicken soup chicken soup.

Thanks Hankster - you're right bronchitis + asthma = exhaustion