Fighting Sleep

I was born a fighter for this, I guess. I'm tired but don't want to sleep just yet. I know tomorrow is another day and I will do this all over again, but I just can't make myself get offline just yet. Ok, the internet is one of my addictions. When everyone around me is sleeping, I feel like I must stay up...for what, I do not know.

I spent all weekend away from the computer...maybe that's it. I have to be on till I feel satisfied. I really don't know.

My mom always told me I was one of the ones who fought sleep a lot. Here I am, still doing it. I don't think I'm afraid of anything. It's more like my mind is full of things that I can be doing online...downloading, posting, etc. I find it very rewarding to be online. If I'm here or at my other sites, I know I am helping others. Although I hate being around people, I like helping them in any way I can...kinda odd isn't it?

I guess I'm just a little nutty! Oh well. Maybe I'll read a little before I crash...it is after 3 am. Pretty soon I'll start acting really goofy!

I know this feeling so well. I have been at my sites for 3 hours now instead of working.
At night, I carry on way past the time my husband goes to bed. Half the time I don't even remember going to bed. But still I don't stop.

Me three....

Hi Lexicon. You and I must be like twins in another life. You just described the way I feel every nite. Have you tried sleeping pills? I have and thats when I get goofy......

Sleeping pills don't keep me asleep for the most part. I'd rather not take anything to make me tired since I notice if I do, I wet the bed at night so I'm extra cautious not to take anything that would make me sleep.

I used to have to be on DDAVP at night when I was on a sedative like Trazodone or other meds like that so I try to steer clear of things like that.

I did the same thing really bad on Friday night. Fighting leaving the coffee shop even though I knew I was exausted and had to get up at a reasonable hour. Got home, couldn't sleep because of the coffee, computer was fried, couldn't get online, so I got in my own head and had a panic attack, had to call a friend at 4am, got like 3 hours of sleep and was up all day Saturday....I kinda like the goofy feeling....bad, bad bad haha.