the cycle of bad

Today I got up, made breakfast all was good until I got frustrated with my 4 year old and yelled at her. She cried and my husband came to me to tell me that I frightened her. I had already realized this and was resentful as well as I already felt guilty about it so I snapped at him, he got frustrated I got dramatic.
I think part of it was that things were not working out the way I wanted them to. I sat outside and cried. Both my 4 year old and my hubby came to hug me. Instead of letting it go I became more upset that now my breakfast was cold. Hubby offered to reheat it.
I just got more upset ran around the house and cried, threw myself on the floor. Then when I was very transfused I feel back into my old ways and hit myself in the face and head over and over.
That just made me feel worse. I wish I would have just stopped way before it went to far but I did not. In fact I do not. Any thoughts on why I do this or how to stop it?
I really would like to get a grip on my emotions so I do not have to feel bad about it for days. Then I just feel bad over and over the cycle.

It sounds like you are unhappy about something and these small things are bringing out your unhappiness. What are you unhappy about?

It's important to act appropriately - especially around your children. It might be helpful for you to get some help with the psychological issue that is causing this behavior. It would set a good example for your child and reassure your husband that you are healthy. Please give it some consideration. All the best to you.

I can't say it any better unhappyguy, Great advice. Why the drama? I can understand you being upset with a 4 year old, I take care of my granddaughter that is 2 almost 3 they can be a handful. Why are you so unhappy? You really would not want to see your daughter or husband throwing a fit like that would you? Daughter I could see, husband now that would be very humorous just think about it! Take care, I wish you well, and stop beating your self up over it, It happened now move on make tomorrow a better day!