Stop blaming it on my age!

I'm sick and tired of everyone blaming all of my issues on the fact that I'm 15. Yes my age doesn't help, no it is NOT the cause of it. My dr went from being less concerned to really concerned to less concerned, saying I'm "normal" and how lots of it is because of my age. No it's not. Since when was it normal for teens to have psychosis, OCD and severe depression? I don't want to sound attention-seeking, but I can't really find help or reassurance when people just go "yes you'll snap out of it" or "just cheer up". Just no. What do I have to do to make you see that I'm not okay?

- I hear/see/feel/smell/taste things that no one else can
- i have special powers
- i see signs and significance in everything
- i sense things
- People who know me say I'm the most delusional/paranoid/obsessive person they've ever met
- My depression is severe and I want to kill myself
- i am disorganised (thoughts etc)
- ive lost all motivation
- The voices tell me to do bad things and if i don't do them then something bad will happen, and i can't rationalise in these periods
- the memories of these are fuzzy/distant
- i cant concentrate enough
- my mind is always racing + i cant hold my thoughts
- my parents are worried
- i self harm
- i have crippling intrusive thoughts
- if i dont do things a certain way/rituals/compulsions then something very bad will happen
- i hate most people and feel drained around them
- i feel tired all the time
- i have chronic pains and fatigue
- i have severe anxiety and paranoia
- my dr says he thinks i definately have ocd, psychosis and a depressive disorder
- i take zoloft
- most of this has been happening since i was 7
- and theres more, but ive forgotten

Not sure what to say, but wanted you to know I'm listening. And I do not think that its normal for anyone to be feeling those things regardless of age. To me saying that just proves that they are ignorant. Please be safe.

(((((WelcomeToTheJungle))))))),

Oh dear, I am so sorry that you are feeling so unheard. I am glad to hear that your parents are concerned. If you are not getting help from the Dr you have been seeing then I really think you should get a second opinion. Please keep the list you posted here and show it to a different doctor because you should be heard and get the help and recognition you need.

Just to let you know, I understand how it feels not to be heard myself. It took me time but I did find a good therapist and am working on my own issues. So please keep trying and find another doctor, perhaps you should find a psychiatrist that can better diagnose you so you can have the help you need.

((((Hugs))))
Open Eyes

(((WelcomeToTheJungle)))

I'm sorry that you are struggling with feeling misunderstood, with your problems being minimized. I can relate to feeling your troubles being minimized a lot. I've been fighting that for a LONG time.

I *think* that doctors sometimes minimize our issues to try and make us feel less burdened. Like we can tell ourselves, "the doctor doesn't think that my problems are super-unusual ~ that cheers me up. I feel better now!" It just doesn't work that way though, does it?

I agree with Open Eyes. Do keep your eyes peeled for another doctor. One who has a bedside manner that fits you better. That understanding is important so you're on the right meds & dosages that work better for you!

I hope that you get some relief soon!

I know your parents are worried about you, can you talk to them about how you feel about this Dr? I too agree that you might need to find someone else or let this Dr. know how you feel, Just tell him. You don't like him not taking you serious. They do that a lot though I know my friends son was going though the same thing and finally he did get to go in the hospital and is getting his meds straight and the care he needed all along. I think sometimes it just takes a while. They just can't put everyone that says they need to go in hospital in as they would not have room for any one. We would all be there. ha! In the mean time just try to take good care of yourself the best you can by eating right and getting the rest you need etc.. Will be thinking of you and hoping you do get the help you need.

((WelcomeToTheJungle))

I am sorry you are being unheard, unlistened to. But your parents are the ones who can help you as gms45 said. However,

"- I hear/see/feel/smell/taste things that no one else can
- i have special powers
- i see signs and significance in everything
- i sense things"

I think you are gifted in having the above. You are artistic, kind and sensitive. Often in Real Life, people who see beautiful things that others cannot are often ignored and ridiculed. To be able to see/feel/taste things that no one else can must be pretty amazing and "sensing things", and intuitive gift.

I pray you find the help you so desperately need. One thing I will caution you about is while you are taking Zoloft, stay off the alcohol. Zoloft and alcohol is highly dangerous. I had a close friend who wigged out when drinking alcohol while on this medication. She blacked out, went into a coma and died.

Ask your parents to accompany you to see a doctor. Please, please stay safe!

Jo

Thank you for the kind words
I agree, I have always felt different and I've been told I'm an Indigo Child. I feel so different from everyone and I always look for the magic and beauty in everything.

I am hoping my Dr will give me diagnoses, and if not then I am changing doctors. He believes it is psychosis, but I am refusing to take antipsychotics just because I can see other worlds and communicate with dimensions. There are so many things science doesn't know of yet.

And I am so sorry for the loss of your friend. Sending hugs your way.
I don't drink alcohol (can't stand the stuff) but thank your for the words of warning!

Also, thank you to everyone else who commented, I really appreciate everything everyone has said.

My mom is very supportive of this, and my dad says he loves me and wants me to get better but I think he is in denial of all of it. I'm lucky to have them

I'm rambling, sorry!

~ WTTJ

I know how you feel. I'm bipolar and I can't even tell you the amount of times people have told me that it's just hormones. People don't understand sometimes, or recognize the severity of the problem. I agree with the others that you need to talk to your parents about this doctor. Let them know that you don't think he completely understands or that he is helping you the way you need to be helped.

Try to remember that just because other people don't understand, there are still a lot of people who do. You're never alone in the way that you feel. There are always people around here who I know will be willing to listen and who can relate. You will find a doctor who understands and realizes that your problems are in fact real problems, and not just teenage ones.

I hope that things improve soon I've been there, and it does get better.

How DARE they them minimize you and your feelings in such a way ... SHAME on them ... !!!

I believe you because I have been there too ... See a lot of myself in your list up there ... And for me it also started at a tender young age ... You say you were 7 when you first noticed ... I was even a little bit younger than that when I first started noticing something wasn't quite right ...

At any rate, it's nothing to do with age but a whole lot to do with what's going on in the brain ... I mean would they say these stupid, insensitive things if you had some sort of physical health malady like cancer or spina bifida or polio or such ... HELL NO!!! ... So why do they think it's okay to do so with mental health issues ......

Oops! ... Sorry! ... Sort of went off on one of my tangents there ... ... BUT, it makes me ANGRY to see anyone treated in such a dismissive and unconcerned manner ...

I hope you know that means I'm in your corner here ...

Sincerely,
BrokenCloud


ps. Feel free to give a copy of this to your doctor so he'll know that at least one adult is calling him on his BS ... I'm sure I'm not the only one who finds his dismissive attitude totally inappropriate ...

Work with this doctor and your parents to find a good mental health team for you. But don't forget that, over time, a lot of things do ameliorate themselves. Time, too, is a good healer. I've been 15 and I've been 60 and 60 is better :-) Hugs!

Oh me too Perna! I'm not quite 60 yet, but would not go back to my teens for anything.

echoing what others have said...

I'm sorry you feel your pdoc is not listening to you. Like others said if s/he continues to not listen find one who will. It's good that your parents are concerned and willing to get help for you. Many kids have parents who won't/can't get them help.

Print out your list and show it to your parents and your pdoc. The things you list are NOT "normal" (I hate that word) for teens.

I swear next time someone tells me to "just cheer up" I'm going to break their legs and tell them to walk it off... Oh that's different is it? Well no it's not.

If you're 15 they shouldn't be expecting you to just put up with this, maybe your doctor needs reminding that he should be treating all these problems, and that if some of it is out of his/her scope then it's their duty to refer you to more specialised professionals.

You need to show them that list.. It's not like they can say "You see and hear things, have anxiety, all the rest on that list but you want to kill yourself because you're 15..."