[drunksunflower]

I don't really know where to put this ... so Ima just going to plop it here

I'm sorry to moan but I need to vent a bit ...

So today I went to dr for follow up from going about 5 weeks ago and started taking 20mg of prozac. It works a little bit I think. But not great, yet

Anyway Im thinking he will just say stay with what I am taking or maybe a little increase cos I know ssris work on me at some point, it's not really complicated.

What I got was told repeatedly that I must be stressed cos I work hard and that is why I am depressed and would I consider counselling. Blah blah blah.

Then, I have some bruises from playing volleyball on the beach last weekend. And he asks me basically if I have an abusive boyfriend "It looks like someone's been grabbing you".

And no matter what I said, that I love my job, they are even sending me away to Malaysia for a week and a half (only five days of that is work training), and that work actually keeps me sane(ish), I just got lectured about the work-life balance repeatedly.

So because I don't sleep that wonderfully I got given some amitryptamine to add to the prozac and sent off again.

I know it's not exactly the worst experience anyone has ever had. But it makes me frustrated. Im functioning ok at work but because I am ok with that then I must be depressed because of work??

Im so tired of feeling sh*tty and now I feel like Im not even being taken seriously/believed etc. He seems like a really nice man but man ... he doesn't listen ... and if I had said any more times that work is GOOD and doesn't STRESS me and Im just MEH anyway (when I don't have any good distraction with work etc) then I probably would have sounded stressed because I would have been virtually yelling at him!!!!!

Im tired of this. It is totally shite.

So ... who else has something to vent about ... floor's all yours

[Sabrina]

Good grief - I wouldn't be able to visit a doctor like that without losing my temper. My son visited a wonderful psychologist last year whom I had to see first. She really was sweet but she spoke non-stop and I barely got a word in. She also tended to speak about too many things to actually answer a question. If that made sense.

I don't blame you for being frustrated.

[EJ711]

Hi Drunkensunflower -

Your story sort of reminds me about my new female M.D. vs. my previous male M.D. I didn't feel very listened to by him, so I decided to try the new lady doctor who came to the practice. When I told her about some symptoms I was having she whipped me out for a nuclear medicine stress test, which checked out normal.

Enjoy your time in Malaysia.

Is there another doctor you can see?

Hugs,

EJ

[drunksunflower]

I don't understand why they fixate on something and talk and decide that is what's causing your issue?

I got pissy ... I tried so many times to just say I feel like cat vomit and I'm tired and there is really not much wrong with my life.

I did actually see the female dr at this practice ... she thought it was all due to hormones and asked me if I was pregnant (I don't think i look pregnant!!)

so i switched to the male dr instead

and he was so nice last time, and this time he was just so hard to talk to.

i dont really wanna explain stuff to anyone new.

so tired of it all.

i know ishouldnt complain cos my problems aren't financial or anything but i find it all real embassing and stuff and i am not silly!!!! I think i know myself quite well - if there was something like stress i could change, i would do so. so why does he not listen to what i say?

[SeptemberMorn]

I've been where you are, DSF. I don't blame you for getting pissy. I've had to get downright MEAN before with some professionals.

The last encounter I had, the T kept saying I was wanting "couple's therapy." No, I didn't!! He kept saying I did and I kept saying NO I didn't until I finally told him he wasn't listening. He was cutting me off before I finished saying what I had to say and I told him so! He finally stopped arguing and listened. Not sure if I got through, though, because I quit going to him. GGGRRRRRRRRR It wasn't ME that was needing help, anyway!

With my long standing T, I got up once and told her that I'd be back when she got over herself and her new-found relationship with another T in her office. I didn't pay for that session, either!

I think they forget about their professional role sometimes... or they take it too seriously. GAWD!!!

[drunksunflower]

Yea ... it's like I am not stupid, I know what my 'options' are, I know that 'x' has worked in the past, I am open to you suggesting 'y', but if I say no to a question, I should not have to repeat it to the point where I feel uncomfortable. If I have an issue at work I resolve it at work. Or maybe he is right and I don't really have anything to be blah about at all.

[SleepsWithButterFlies]

It doesnt matter if you don't have ANYTHING to be blah and down about..the fact that you DO FEEL that way is the issue and it needs to be treated..he sounds like a lump of dung at times

[drunksunflower]

I just got tired of explaining that actually work is the best thing in my life right now ...

interesting to read/hear it has happened to others :/

[(JD)]

((((DR Unk)))) Ummm even good things that happen can be stressful (there's good and bad... and they are still stressful!)

He sounds like he cares. Too bad he didn't hear you. I hope you are able to go on the trip and come back and report wonderful things to him!

[drunksunflower]

What's good stressful?? I don't think I get that .. Yes I am off in a couple of days and maybe it will be the best thing in a while

I just got given a small pay rise so work is like - the best thing in my life

[desirae]

I hear you about nobody listening. I get that a lot, I sometimes think I am the only one that hears me. You'd expect a professional who was trained to listen would listen. I know how that can be, sometimes they like to just get their patience in and get them out as soon as possible.

If I had something to complain about it would be my mother.

When my sister had her baby she was on the streets hooking and smoking crack. She's been doing that for a while. I mean I always suspected that was going on because when I was 13 I saw my mom standing on the side of the street half naked sticking her head in cars and then leaving with one of them. Her husband was waiting at home for her to return with the rock. It was a very bad time, and she is now at that point.

I found out from several different people at the hospital, a couple of my sisters friends, and some of their family, that my mom is hooking again. She even one time tried to beg money off of one of them.

How embarrassing.

Yeah that really pissed me off originally, then after the baby was born she came HIGH, and the first thing she asked was was the baby black. I told her off right in front of Dana's friends (apologized later), and told her to leave.

Who cares if he was black, white, Hispanic, or whatever....she should have asked if they were okay first.

Yesterday I went over there to do my laundry, and she asked me to hide her car keys outside so she couldn't leave for the night. I knew when I was hiding it it would have been a mistake because she would call in the middle of the night begging for them. I was right, she called very early in the morning crying saying she needed to go to court or she would go to jail. I told her where they were at, although I did not believe her because I wanted to go back to sleep.

Later I called Dana, who is in the hospital again, and told her about it, she laughed and said mom went to court the other day.

I knew she was bs'ing me! Like always.

I can't imagine lying to people like that, I wouldn't be able to take the constant guilt trips. But I guess the drugs make her numb to that.

Anyway, thanks for letting me ***** a little.

[SeptemberMorn]

Good Stressful is when you're planning a big wedding and now it's time to make decissions about what you're going to feed the people, what kind of music you're going to be playing, flowers, bridesmaid dresses, and so on. It's all the good things that you want to happen but you have to make sure they happen the way you want them. It fun but it's stressful!