[kittymom]

I'm hanging on by a thread. My T wants me to go to the hospital, but I just don't see how that is going to help anything. Especially right now when I have a short time to find a new job. Even good things that happen aren't making me feel anything but miserable. I've started having physical symptoms from this, and that's really never happened before -- my stomach is upset all the time (all the better to lose weight, I guess). (Please excuse the morbid humor).

I have started making stupid mistakes at work, when I'm actually working and when I'm not, like, 3 hours late. I'm just.....blahhhhh.

[Der_Sohn_des_Leides]

((((((((kittymom))))))))

If you're hurting that much, maybe the hospital is the best option. Will you be able to find a new job when you're experiencing so much pain and making mistakes on the job you have right now? I know the hospital isn't fun, but you have to take care of yourself. If that's what it takes, you may just have to.

Keep posting, we'll be listening.

Take care,



J

[DOWNINNATICK]

I know things are bad right now, but the hospital will help you work through some of your problems. You need to help yourself first, before you can find a new job. So please get help, you are a very special person and we all need you. Please check out this card, I hope it cheers you up.

http://www.spiritisup.com/neveralone.html

[puckyjan56]

I know thoughts of going into the hospital sounds frightning and worthless but you will feel better and then come back to us and share what you've learned. Good luck Kittymom..puckyjan56....xxoo

[Doh2007]

Sometimes we just have to give up and accept help. We never know the outcome. Maybe you'll be able to go on disability for a time, until you feel stronger and healthier. It may be that your job stress is affecting your health.

[kebsfroggy]

It is not "wrong" to go to the hospital. If you are loosing your job anyway, it is worth a try.

At the hospital you don't have to be responsible for or to anyone but your self. Think of it as the grown-ups time out.

Depending on the facility they will
stabilize your meds.

check to make sure the diagnosis is correct

provide or contact various services and providers in your area

give you a chance to pull your thoughts together

and of course there are the infamous group counseling sessions (yuck)

Sure hope things start getting better for you real soon
My best thoughts coming to you

((( kittymom )))

[kittymom]

Thank you all for your kind thoughts. Today was another really bad day, although it started with a visit with my pdoc, which was ok I guess. The days are just really grinding me down and I'm sooo tired. I wrote out a will today, too.

My doc is still suggesting the hospital, but he pretty much wants me to just show up in an emergency room and announce that I'm depressed. Well, I did that once before (at his suggestion) and it was the WORST EXPERIENCE EVER. I was locked in an ER psych unit for 2 days until they had a bed, and just 2 hours after finally getting to the floor, I got pancreatitis again and had to be moved to a medical unit. My pancreatitis doc didn't have privileges at this particular hospital, so he couldn't do anything and it was awful. My pdoc doesn't have privileges anywhere, so he couldn't really help either and the whole thing was a mess. Plus, he never came to see me or anything. So now I think I'm scared to death to submit myself to something potentially like that again. I just don't know what to do?!?!?

I just know that I want this horrible, miserable, painful life to stop!! It has to stop. I just can't keep going.

[AAAAA]

I'm so sorry that your last experience was so bad. Even if your pdoc doesn't have priviledges, isn't there someone he can refer you to that does? I'm so sorry things are so bad right now.