[insideout]

ever get so sick of it ALL that you just want out?!
i for one am so sick of my "life" and dropping out seems like the only sensible thing to do.
i feel like i cant keep up with all of society's expectations.
because i struggle with this horrible brain affliction.
and i feel like its all a waste.
god, people depend on me to be normal, to be able and willing to compete in society.
but im afraid i just cant
trying is just making me WORSE!
cuz my heart is not in this!

i desperately want to leave, join a cult or something. i am so serious.
wish i could escape society.

[(JD)]

I'm torn when I read your post and feel your frustration with life. I know this too well. I did just what you ask about... withdraw from society. Isolation is only a temporary solution. Running away doesn't usually help, since it is our own coping skills (or lack of them) that run away with us, imo.

Sometimes it is good to cut back on the number of activities, and to limit the number of people and even with whom we associate. Hopefully, you have someone (a T?) to keep in touch with as you try to work through those horrible feelings.

[Myzen]

Hi Inside,

Oh yes, this is a familiar feeling for a lot of us here at PC.

I don't know whether it's dropping out or falling out of society, as it seems pretty automatic once it starts. When I was first going into my present downturn (nine years ago!), the doctor said "Once the ball starts rolling downhill, it's very hard to stop it."

But it's not all bad, it's just different, and we find other places and other networks to belong to and share in. PC is a good one.

Welcome, and I hope that you find an adjustment to suit you, and an easier time.

Good thoughts, M

The good news is that it' s not all bad.

[CedarS]

Helps me to think of our world as composed of a variety of societies, cultures, and communities. Some overlap, some do not. So for instance, in my own town, mainstream competitive society is not all that is available.

I myself am not able to be part of the fast moving competitive mainstream culture entirely. I am an observer. I work on maintaining my own self respect and dignity, I watch how I talk to myself, I work to not put myself down for not being able to fit in.

There are so many other choices. Here there is the social justice community, various faith communities, the list is long. I dip in and out as I am able.

I think of my time alone as nurturing and work to make sure it does not slip into being isolating.

I am not alone, many many people create their own sense of community and place, many people do not feel "normal", and even "normal" is a term that is rightfully questioned. Probably the TV view of the "normal" mainstream "successful" family isn't so much the norm after all.

I also feel part of the greater whole, the human family.

[hillbunnyb]

I can't say it any better than what has aleady been posted.
Keep breathing in good thouts and out bad thoughts. Take care.

[Lexicon78]

I feel this way daily! Well, for different reasons but some of the same reasons. Did I just make any sense? Yeah, well I usually don't.

Try to hang in there.

[Maven]

Oh, yeah, I feel like that a lot. I don't want to be a burden to anyone, or have to deal with all the guilt and frustration. But I have dreams, and I figure, one day I'll have the opportunity to either go for my dreams, or drop out of society. I plan to shoot for my dreams, because I'd like a chance at happiness. I hope you get to go for your dreams, too. Everyone here should have a chance at happiness.

[jennie]

there are many options in life . . . many ways to cope.

sometimes mental illness limits our perspective on things. during those times, we should ask for help, ideas, and support from others.

i am confident that everyone here can find ways to bring happiness into his or her life.

be flexible and willing to change the things in your life that you think hold you back from being happy. if you can't directly change those things, then change your perspective on those things and then focus on changing the things that you can.

consider this tom edison quote
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If I find 10,000 ways something won't work, I haven't failed. I am not discouraged, because every wrong attempt discarded is often a step forward....

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