[PasDeDeux]

never mind it was stupid

[PasDeDeux]

edited for being too needy. sorry

Hi there.

Well, you have done the best thing to get support - ask for it directly!

Im Rainbowzz, I come here with a diag of PTSD, Bipolar II, DID and Panic Disorder. They say ADHD too, but Im sceptical of that one.

What is goin on?

gosh, i replied to your first threads here. i was supporting you. i'm moving and i can't be on every day. i'm sorry that you didn't feel support. xoxox pat

((((((((Pas))))))))))

[Lexicon78]

I'm sorry you're having such a rough time obtaining support here. I know that can be quite frustrating and discouraging.

I don't visit each forum but I do check up on a few of them. Sorry I haven't been there for you. Needy or not, you still need support.

A little background on me:

I'm Lexi, sexual abuse survivor, cutter, and I suffer from severe depression, PTSD, borderline personality disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, panic attacks, low self-esteem...the works! If you want, you may PM me.

I don't frequent the site quite as much as I used to since I have my own mental health site plus I moderate 2 others. So I keep myself pretty busy and lately I've been trying to be offline more and doing some more physical activity instead of sitting in front of my monitor from the time I get up to the time I go to bed.

Hang in there.

[radio_flyer]

(((((((((((((( Pas )))))))))))))))))) You don't need to be sorry for needing support... Sometimes we tend to need more support than other other times... This maybe the time you are in need of a lil more support........and that is ok........

[PasDeDeux]

Hi Rainbowzz, Pat and Lexicon, estersvirture and radio, I was not complaining about the lack of support I was just trying to get someone to see me the last maybe 2 hours I was on. I didn't know what to do to get anyone to help me tonight. I was wondering what one does to get help in here or support within a certain time period? I have anxiety too big time and panic also PTSD. The anxiety is the worse for me. I fear such stupid stuff. I too am not on a lot as I like to do things physical as much as I can. I don't know how else to say this but on some thread so many argued about how many and how few words to use to help/support someone and I sat with no words and saw some other newish people in the same spot I think I may just being a child but I felt extra alone. Does that make sense ? Can you understand?

sometimes you can hop into the support-chatroom and find some support there..

[PasDeDeux]

Radio you nailed it right on. Before I edited my post at the top I had said that I didn't seem to have a lot of support to give right now because I NEED it more myself right now and that I knew it sounded greedy but it isnt I do try to be supportive but sometimes I do not have much to give

Thank you all and PAT I have missed you I know you were there a lot before you went away and did and have supported me ....a few have .

[PasDeDeux]

((ESTERS)) I will have to check chat out thank you

[radio_flyer]

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some thread so many argued about how many and how few words to use to help/support someone

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I think the least of your worries when responding to a post is how many or how few words to use.. It doesn't matter if you say one word or four paragraphs.. It is important for a poster to feel comfortable with what they are saying and not have to worry if they have said too much or too little...It takes a lot of caring and sometimes a lot of effort to reach out to help someone... and when one reaches out, it should be appreciated... if the advice doesn't fit, just over look it... if it does... take it to heart and learn and grow...

[nothemama8]

don't worry about how long your post is, when you need support pm someone or even pm a mod or Admin if they are online
Love
Angie

some good points above. PMing someone, check if they are online, always helps me.

sometimes when i'm tired or feeling totally useless here, i just click on the "more smilies" and give someone a twirly heart or a dancing chile.... ...xoxoxo pat

[PasDeDeux]

Thanks Pat, Angie and Radio.....I will try that but am a little afraid of pming someone who doesn't maybe want to talk to me. I felt left out. I am also afraid to post to many people because I do not know them or their disorder well. I guess I am being sensitive or something. I just needed someone to talk to and do not want to mess anyone else up .
Thanks

my DX is bipolar11. i call myself a bipolarbearian. i get way more depressed than i get manic. i take lamictal, wellburtrin, prozac, xanax and for my pain, i take one darvocet when i need it. which is rarely now.

i'm 62, just moved to Texas. single 16 years. married twice. three dogs and four cats. two daughters and three grandchildren. one daughter lives here with her two children and one lives in the town that i just moved from. her husband is in Iraq.

photography defines who i am. i am also a music slut. i read alot and i take old light fixtures and make elegant chandeliers out of them for candlelight. i love to garden and cook. i hate people who abuse animals, children, the elderly and my space.

i cannot sew, paint, draw, sing, cook korean food (which i love), stay cheerful all the time, stand my brother and the heat and ants and religious fanatics....

i have limitless patience for ducks crossing the road, possums, snakes, spiders, lovers, trains, old men, the mentally ill, horses, small creeks that are trying to exist in the heat, cats, lizards and toads, Van Morrison, my daughter who has ruined her hair trying to go blonde, children learning to tie their shoes or dial my rotary phone, small dogs that don't understand that some cats don't like to wrestle, Willie Nelson and my learning to crochet.

i love Dairy Queen tropical blizzards (with pecans), german chocolate cake, fried apples, cornbread (that i make),fried potatoes, fried okra, fresh tomatoes, sour kraut, pinto beans, stir-fry, mangoes, peaches, apricot pie, northern New Mexico food, Coca-Cola, plums, northern New Mexico Jonathan apples, cigar smoke, pipe smoke, sexy men, flirty (classy flirts) men, men that have a life, cowboys and indians and Bill.
PM me any time. love, pat