Feeling very restless and want to scream

I don't know why. I just feel not so good. I have tried to keep busy but wonder why I ever even come home. Somedays I do not even get to say 3 full sentences to any other human...I am not heard either. The ole man is laying in his chair asleep since 8 p.m I am just tired of being lonely and things like that

do you have anything to distract you? t.v., a good book? someone you can call and talk to? xoxox pat

Thanks Pat and no..I have the TV on and played 4 times with my dog he doesn't even want to play in or outdoors now he is so tired. I went for a swim earlier and did a lot but at night, it is like the world swallows me up and I am almost on hold or something. In a bit I will take a bath and all but this is giving me bad ideas for things to do to excite myself or something. I don't know how to explain it but it's like I could stand here and scream at the top of my lungs and all I would accomplish is hurting the dogs ears I am just I don't know how to put this but NEEDING to do something physical but cannot make noise and have no where to go tonight

posting here might help. there are lots of people here to talk to. we have a chat also.

where do you live? i'm in texas. it is very hot and humid here.

i'm sorry that you're having such a hard time tonight. pat

Thanks again...Yes it's very hot and humid here too. I went for a swim today and am sorry I came home. I wanted to stay but knew I had to fetch dinner. I have also almost lost my ability to talk with other people in person and on message boards. I read a few pages here the last couple to few days but do not feel I have much to contribute. I feel so not part of the human race. I appreciate the company I don't want to be quiet and still, yet I have to. It is very hard to be quiet and still it reminds me of when I was a kid or something

i hope that you have a peaceful night and get a good night's sleep. i do remember those days of being a child and having to be quiet. you reminded me of the sunday afternoons...........xoxo pat

I know how you feel, I hate feeling that way, it's such a low feeling. I'm sorry you feel this way, we are here for you....so your not as alone as you feel. Look up okay.

Pat thank you for spending time with me last night. Most of my nights are like that. I am sorry I brought bad memories up for you. I am also sorry if I scared you when I left but I did not know if you were still on so I went for that bath and didn't sign back in. I know you are away I read somehwere about your bf being in WV through I don't understand why you are going to OK I do hope all goes well

Desirae it's nice to know someone else knows how you feel. I feel less alone. Yes I hate this I feel like this most of the time at night and it makes me very anxious. I find I do not know what to do with me. Anything passive just doesn't cut it. I guess I feel smothered. Thank you, I tried to thank you earlier and they would not let me post till after midnight

I do however feel very bad again tonight. I could explode and had to add this as a edit so I don't use my posts up..I am nervous too and I think that may be why I don't know HOW to explain how I feel. How bad, how trapped