[Switch]

I'm really ashamed to say this, but I feel like this is something I have struggled with for a very long time. The ability to function on a basic level.

I realize that when you have mental health issues, your functioning tends to go down, but this is getting ridiculous. I'm at the point where I can't cook, or wash dishes, or shower, or get dressed, or go to the store, or anything without crying or getting very anxious. I even avoid going to the bathroom until the very last possible moment. A good thing is that I've quit smoking, because I honestly can't be bothered to go outside for a cigarette.

My house is a mess, dishes are very much undone, and I haven't changed or eaten in two days. My boyfriends been out of the house, and I'm suppose to go meet him at his moms today to help with some stuff. I was suppose to go yesterday but kicked him out of the house instead.

I don't eat unless he makes me. I don't take my medication unless he hands it to me. I don't clean up after anything, or really do anything at all lately. And he doesn't help because he doesn't notice. He's had to stop taking his meds because his doctor is on vacation and he can't get a new script. He hasn't noticed I've stopped eating or taking my meds because he's so distracted, and he's a naturally messy person so he's not about to take up the initiative and clean the apartment for me.

I'm lost and I don't know what to do... help

[Meisjes]

maybe you and your bf are kind of feeding off each other? dunno. I know its a hard place to be cuz I was there with my ex. I didn't do, he didn't do....no matter it didn't get done. I am in a bit of a funk now having some feelings that way. The best way I know to get something done is by doing 1 thing. and taking a break. then do another thing. make a list of 2 or 3 things and do it for yourself. then do the same thing tomorrow. if we leave it up to someone else they're going to tire of taking care of us when they see we don't do it for ourselves. some day you'll thank yourself for it. right now its co-dependant. then it'll be independent.

It might help to have an outside person call you to remind you to take your meds for a bit. Some hospitals, caregivers are willing to do that. have your meds and a glass of water in easy reach if there are no children around.

take what works, leave the rest.

[Fuzzybear]

((((((( Switch)))))))

[Open Eyes]

((Switch)),

You say that you have alot of different disorders, but you also say "possible PTSD too". Have you ever been treated for PTSD?

I have gone through stages where I have really struggled like this myself. So I know the feeling of not wanting to do anything and just isolating, and yet wanting to talk too. When was the last time you had therapy?

When you get bad like this you need to reach out more, even if you struggle to find the energy to do that. I am glad that you have at least come here to talk about it, that is a good start.

Perhaps you need a change in your medication, I was on Klonopin for a while and I slowly weaned myself off of it because it's a sedative and it made me even "more" depressed. That is just me and I am not a doctor, but you might not be doing well on whatever medication you might be taking and you may need to discuss it with a pdoc.

As far as taking a shower is concerned, the majority of the battle is getting yourself in the shower, that is what I find for myself, and I always feel so much better after I "do" finally shower. Same thing with cleaning up, I do little things and that helps, I make sure I don't see all the stuff that I don't do and instead just do "something" each day. My goal is just to accomplish something and not push myself any harder. Sometimes I find that once I tackle one thing I am more motivated to do something else.

Sorry you are struggling so much, please make sure you ask for help.

(((((Hugs))))))

[Switch]

Open Eyes:

last therapy session was on Tuesday.

I've taken myself off my medication.

For me it's easy to get in, it's hard to get past the standing up off the bottom of the tub with the water pouring on your soothingly, and into a standing washing myself position...

I'm scared a bit because though I'm talking about it, I still don't know if I want help, or if I even deserve it at this point.

Meisjes: I think you're right, we are kinda feeding off each other... that's why I'm trying not to be mad at him and stuff... because I know it's not his fault, not really.

Thank you all for your support btw.

[IceCreamKid]

You do deserve to have help. If you wanted to just soak in the tub without scrubbing, you could. There is no rule that says you cannot. I have filled the tub with sweet-smelling bubbles (or just plain water) and just lazed in it like I was at a spa.

Your boyfriend could probably call his doctor's office and find out who is handling his doctor's emergencies while he is away. He might also ask the pharmacy what to do about getting enough of his medication to tide him over until the doctor gets back.

I don't know if this will help you or not. I have many of the same problems you do with general housekeeping, living, self-care. No doubt part of it is my profound depression. But I also know that some of it, much of it is because I am simply overwhelmed. I should have taken my daughter-in-law up on her offer to help but I was too ashamed. I believe this is a mistake.

What you might do is ask for help among who you think will help you. You and your boyfriend might be able to agree on one doing one chore, another doing something else. I often can do something for someone else I cannot do for myself (sounds crazy, I know).

I am not sure how these things work, but I always believe in asking; you might contact your own doctor and see if you can be directed to some agency that will help you with household and personal chores in the short term, until you start feeling better. I send you love and hope.

[ShaggyChic_1201]

Originally Posted by Switch

I've taken myself off my medication.

Switch - with all your struggles, why did you decide to choose to come off your medication? That doesn't sound like a wise idea at all.