[inkblot]

This post could go in several forums. I don't know what is going on. Maybe I do, but it's such a dang mix of feelings. I'm sad, I'm angry, I could cry, I'm stressed. Many of you already know that I often times don't like to eat and I'll post something once in a while in the ED forum. I just so need a break and for life to change. I'm afraid that what if things get worse or continue like this?! I don't want to start freaking again like I did a few years ago. I've been getting too emotional reacting to things. I found a website that will send free faxes, so I sent my doc another fax. I just sent him one the other night. I wish he'd have voice mail or email. It would be so much better and easier. He's got work to do so I don't want to call. It's not like this is an emergency, just an annoyance. I would love to talk to him though. I don't have an appointment until next week yet.

[SeptemberMorn]

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Inkblot}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} Don't know why I hadn't seen your post before this. I'm sorry! Hope you're feeling just a bit better by now. How many days closer are you to seeing your doc? Hope the time goes by fast for you.


<font color=blue>"The winds of change continue rolling and they just carry me away."</font color=blue>

[angel04]

(((((inkblot)))))) I have felt just that way for months now. I'm sorry I don'[t know what to say to help. I just wanted you to know that I heard your cry and I'm thinking about you.
As september said, I hope time flies and your doc appt comes around soon.
hugs
angel

"man's belief that he is the only intelligent being has not done him good" JRR Tolkien

[Audrey]

inkblot
I not to certain as to what you mean by you don't want to start freaking again, but if it makes you feel any better you do have an advantage. That is that you know that there is a chance that you might start freaking. You know what tendenicies you have displayed in the past and you are consicous about not wanting it. sometimes just knowing this helps. So relax, your freaking out a few years ago wasn't totally for nothing; it gave you a means of knowlege for the future.

[Fuzzybear]

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{inkblot}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} I am sorry I missed your post. I hope you're feeling a bit better now, good luck with your doctor. Fuzzy xx

[bptoo]

inkblot,

I like many of the others can't believe this one slipped past me. I hope you'll forgive me. While your circumstances may be different, your emotions are some that many of us have felt before, please don't feel alone. And for God's sake remember this, you are your doctor's work, what you feel is ALWAYS important. Never, ever minimize your feelings. So many of have spent our entire lives taking a back seat because we thought our feelings weren't important enough. You are valuable, important, and loved. If you need to pick up that phone and call your doc do it. If it's important to you, it should be to him.

Please let us know what happens, please?

Much love,
bp

"When you get the choice to sit it out or dance, I hope you dance."

[inkblot]

Thanks everyone. I think I'm doing better. I'm on a female carbohydrate binge, tho. I just don't know what to do about everything. Now this past weekend my child's doc mentioned the possibility of my kids staying over night with me, so I have mixed feelings on that too. There is still so much to think about with that. I have such a small place right now that there is almost no room for myself and kids, too. Plus the fact that it has been so long.....I don't know. I just don't know what is right or how I will react--or how I should react. I've got my doc appointment in two more days and I can't wait. I'll drive straight there after work and sit in my car for an hour just to be there ahead of time, LOL. I'm not even sure if that second fax I did through a website went through okay or not. I'll have to try and ask the doc when I go in how many faxes he received. If he says just one, I don't know whether I'll be disappointed that he didn't get the website one, or happy and saying, "Oh, good!"