Verbal Diarhea(sp)

I need to rant.

So, today is the last day my power will be connected. I am calling to the local food bank today to see if they can help me keep it on. I may be without you guys for a few weeks otherwise, which makes me want to cry in itself since Ive been so housebound this is really the only way I get to socialize is online, seeing as how I dont live directly in town.

I haven't been sleeping. I can't afford my sleeping pills, and I am getting jerked around by my social worker. They won't pay for them. Well, fine, I guess I just wont sleep.haha.(sarcasm)

Found out my boyfriend sort of stole from me( I say sort of because its a long story)moreso lied about something I asked him about because he thought I would get angry. Yes, I got angry. Would have been less angry had he told me.

I dont know how things are going to go. Im scared to get upset and kick him the heck out, because hes my roommate right now, and if he goes then I definetly have to go. Im already three months behind in rent, just myself here I would just sink farther. Moving somewheres I can afford off the 290.00 they accord us for rent here in halifax (with my three cats) - hm. Not going to happen. So I guess then they mean that everyone on assistance should be in a womens shelter? Well no wonder they fill so fast.

*sigh* I am sick of life. Im tired of eating once a day and starving for the rest. Im tired of letting people walk all over me. Im tired of being sick, Im tired of being tired.

Im just darned tired and I am not seeing a light at the end of this tunnell.

I keep searching for something good to hold on to, but I cant seem to find it.

House is absolute disaster, noones been cleaning since about a week. you can invision the msss I am sure.

I want to crawl under something and cover my ears until the world goes away.

(((rainbowzzz))) so sorry.

thanks

i hate today

don't forget to call your local churches for help also.
things will get better, and then you'll shine again
Angie

(((((((((((((((((( rainbowzzz )))))))))))))))))

))))))) )))) rainbowzz ((((((((((

Sorry to hear about your troubles.

((((((((((hugs)))))))))))

I have been in your shoes, as recently as this past winter. It is very difficult, if not impossible, NOT to become angry and depressed ... which of course makes it harder to do all the running around you have to do to social service agencies.

I'm not sure what I can do to help, but if you can think of something, PM me. I can at least listen.

Candy

{{{{{{{{{Rainbowzz}}}}}}}}}}}} I'm so sorry! I've been in the same place you are! Feels like you're at the bottom of the barrel, but really, you're not. At any rate, you can't go much lower without having to go up again. Have faith. Something will give soon!

((((((((((Rainbowzz)))))))))))
i'm sorry you are experiencing all this at the moment i hope you find a way to survive

i'm not sure what to say ...

i so hope things work out for you soon

x

Thank you everyone.



all of you are doing more than enough just by listening to my ranting and telling me Im not totally off base.

Ive gotten a little sleep though not much I feel a bit more centered. Called for a pdoc appointment when I woke up. Still have power (yay!) and if they hold off until the end of the week i should get my check and be able to give something. Churches - no luck so far, but I have been trying. Ive only tried three so far as well as sally anns, so I intend to keep trying.

I am going to mass hug you all because there are simply so many of you who responded.

for all of you.

I think today was the culmination(sp) of about three weeks worth of stress. sort of a popping, if you will.

I am off to try and nap again. Thanks again guys.

Rainbowz...call your local food pantry also...get on food stamps if you aren't already!! I feel so bad for you right now...I know how hard it is to catch up once you fall behind..I have done it myself...Good luck to you...and hope boyfriend is helping you!!