Letting it Out...

Fine, I'll let some of it out to A user...

I guess it doesn't matter how many users reply to this post, there will be at least ONE to respond back.

I am breaking one of my rules:

2. Do not tell your troubles to others unless you are sure they are wanting to hear them.

There is no guarantee that someone will care to listen anyway. I would like to help others on this website too, but no one seems to want my help so that's why I don't post on here as often.

No, I don't want to hurt others, I'd rather comfort and cry along with them as we share each other's pain. I would hold you in my arms and rock back and fourth as tears spill from our eyes. I want to connect with people but they are so cruel and careless. They only care about the latest technology, building up their social status, and trying to be what others want them to be. I can't find a connection with you at all, any of you.

I don't understand why it's okay for you to laugh and joke around, but I'm not allowed, but when I do I'm scolded for it and I'm berated for even breathing. I'm 17 years of age and you're way ****ing older than me, and I'm not allowed to have fun!? Why do I have to be the adult and you get to be the kid?

I feel like crying all of the time now, and I just want to be a baby again. I feel like I want to be held and cuddled, just to be taken care of again and have the sort of special nurturing bond. I just want to start it all over again.

I have been pestering my school psychologist even though my dad has told me not to bother them, and finally I'm getting some help. It's getting slow though, and it's not fast enough. My grades are slipping, and my "family" members can't grasp the concept that I am not in their "perfect image" and can't be charismatic. I'm paranoid about everything and I'm stressed out about everything that comes to my mind. I can't focus on my school work and I daydream and get distracted with thoughts.

I'm feeling like I'm more connected with nature than I am with humans, and more towards animals.

My face (my cheeks and nose) get tingly when I think being hugged by a guy, and whenever I sense something different from human presence. I feel like I can connect with spirits than I can with humans.

I really have no idea what is going on, I just wish someone had this sort of connection with me.

I feel older than I am.

I want to go back in time and find out the secrets to our beginning of civilization.

I've been moving around in my seat during class whenever I think.

There's now a blank expression to my face when I talk, and I'm always serious.

I was told that I have anxiety issues.

I can't stop rambling about spirituality, people being ignorant, people hurting our home world, and everything else.

I can't stop being serious.

I'm sorry to hear you are struggling so much and don't feel like you can connect. I know how it feels to need to grow up and be an adult before your time so can definitely relate there - it sucks!

I know it is hard but don't give up - keep trying to connect with people. It takes time and unfortunately sometimes a lot of bad experiences but you will find people who you can connect with and relate to. They are out there

If you ever want to talk though please feel free to PM me. I don't always have answers but am always happy to listen and get to know people.

Thank you for understanding me and listening.

Just over night things have changed, and now I am in much greater danger...

how come?. what happened?

i think it's great that you're reaching out for help- i think that's a really good thing

i am very interested in your spiritual side, but maybe that's because i'm always questioning what is after death, is their anything etc etc.

feel free to message me too- it sounds like you are a very caring person, and just want that in return but have not had such good luck with that

I'm so sorry that you are having trouble finding people willing to listen or care about what you have to say. Please keep posting or you can PM me. I will be glad to listen. I don't know if I have any answers but I will be gald to listen.

I hope things, are ok, now? Anyways, I've rather enjoyed coming across your posts, when I bumped into them, here.

I hear you, about feeling older than your age. Some of us, have had to grow up, too young, in life. Not, the fairest of things, but it brings out a certain something, in those of us, that have.

fyi, I thought your font color was fun, I hope that wasn't a troublesome spot for you? *hug*

No, things change and are getting more tense...

I'm waiting for dad to make a move.