Things happen for a reason

For all of my life, it seems that when I am go through something psychologically stressful, there are always many other things that happen during that same time to spread around what my mind has to focus on.

Under the psychotherapy forum, I posted about all the emotions I was having with the sale & clearing out my Mothers home. Monday night was the final load of things & yes, it was hard to drive away, knowing that I would never be going back there again to the home that has been in all 53 years of my life.

On top of this, I had several more serious things hit me at the same time. Sunday evening, I got a call from the lady that boards my horses. My 2 year old filly (the love of my life) had colic. Colic is like a massive tummy ache that they can very easily die from if not cared for immediately. My husband was on his way home at the time. I had the medication to give her but didn't have a car to drive myself over to the ranch. The ranch owner was coming to pick me up at the same time my husband arrived at home.

We flew over to the ranch & my filly was laying on the ground. She was sweating & I could hear her groaning....she sounded just like me when I have a stomach ache. I gave her the oral med & then forced her up to walk around & make sure she didn't twist with the pain. You can imagine the struggle trying to keep a horse that weighs over 1000 lbs walking when all she wants to do is lay down!!!!! We walked her around for over an hour & she still wasn't getting much better. I called the vet (like usual, on emergency time). She had a few more emergencies but colic raised my priority & it was going to be about an hour. I had to keep Izzy walking the whole time.

The oral med I gave her started working right before the vet arrived but watching her & knowing many horses that died from colic, I realized how fragile huge horses actually are. I started thinking about what it is going to be like alone on my own farm in Kentucky without a vet close by. Luckily, the vet came because Izzy still wasn't 100% & the vet said that relapses can easily happen if it isn't completely taken care of. I am thankful that the med the vet gave her on top of what I gave her did the trick & she was back to eating on Monday when we careful gave her a nice hot bran mash for each meal.

But I said there were SEVERAL things that hit me before I finished up at my Mothers home. Monday on the hour drive to my Mothers home my husband was just driving along in the fast lane on the freeway. I saw something coming across the lanes. All of a sudden, wham, the car jared so bad, it knocked the inside rear view mirror off the window & continued jaring until he got the car over into the center divider. He had just enough room to get out & see the front tire blown apart. The freeway towing help for disabled cars arrived just as I was calling my auto club. He got the front tire changed but the little spare was flat. He couldn't put air in it where we were so we had to pull across the freeway lanes to the outside emergency lane. The tow truck made it across the freeway & was waving my husband over. He sat there asking me how he was going to get clear across the freeway. I looked back & saw theCalif. Highway Patrol (CHP) running a traffic block so we could get our car off the freeway. I have to hand it to the CHP. They have been awsome everytime they have helped me & this is just another good point for them. The little spare tire woudn't go more than 20 miles at 55mph.

By this time it was late Monday afternoon & I still needed to get information into escrow & finish clearing out the house because the house sale closed that day. We couldn't go anywhere the way the car was so we headed immediately to the tire store, hoping that the blown out tire & bent rim was the only problem. As we limped off the freeway, there was a horrble sound with every turn of the stearing wheel. When we arrived at the tire store, they looked at the front end (as much as they could see without raising it up) & found that the strut had been mangled along with the wheel & tire. They couldn't do anything until the next morning. I called up my insurance because they said I should file a claim since it was actually a no fault accident. My husband picked up the huge chunk of metal that hit our car. It was weighed way over 25 lbs. Luckily, my insurance covers a rental car & had to make arrangements for that. My insurance wouldn't authorize any repairs without having their own people inspect it & they their inspectors can't be there before Friday (4 days later).

Well, we left the car for the tire store to look over better the next morning & determine exactly how much damage there was. We then went to get the rental car. When trying to rent the car, they wouldn't rent to me because they said there was an outstanding payment that hadn't been made by my insurance way back in 2000. Luckily, they rented it to my husband & we finally got the escrow papers to our real estate agent after 5pm & then got back to the house after that.

The house was sold & the new people were moving in things as I was moving out the last few items. I rode away from the house realizing that I would never be going back there again, but thinking about how well my filly was doing, feeling lucky that only my car was damaged but wondering how much damage was actually done to my car.

We got a call Tuesday morning & found out that the whole left front side of my car was taken out (a huge amount of damage) & have to wait for the insurance to cover the damage because we can't afford to pay for it. But on the happy side, my horse is now doing extremely well & that is the most important thing to me.

I have always noticed everytime I have something stressful that I have to go through, there are always other "serious" things that happen to me at the same time. Even though I go into overload when this happens, at least I am not letting just one thing push me into this overload. I honestly think this happens to me because that forces me to spread my thinking around to other things that matter to me, so I don't just focus on the one stressful thing I initially have to deal with. I don't know if this only happens to me, but I think it might be something that happens to everyone else too.......so we can know that there is not any one thing in our life that needs that much worry.

At least I have several things to be thankful for while going through this mess, which helps me deal with the hard thoughts I need to put into perspective.

I need to take some time away from everything & hopefully get myself back together. It always seems like when it rains it pours, but it does help spread my thoughts around,
Debbie

Hi Eskielover,

Thank you for your moving story.

Do you have any more houses to sell?

Hugs,

EJ

EJ,

You want to know if I have another house to sell, & that is definitely a "yes". I need to sell the house I have been living in for the last 20 years. The only problem is that I need to purchase a farm for my dogs, horses, & everything I have in my home before I can get to the things that need fixed before it can be sold. (walls patched & painted, new carpet, new appliances.....blah, blah, blah)

Right now my home has so much stuff accumulated over the 20 years then top it off with the stuff from my Mothers home that I just moved in. I can barely turn around in any of the rooms let along be able to make the repairs.

I am so overwhelmed at this point with everything left to do before I will ever be finished. I don't have strength enough to do anything more than hide under my blankets & sleep right now. I wish it was all over. The sale of my Mothers home was only the 1st step & I am exhausted already. There are so many more things I have to deal & I don't have strength enough right now to do anything. I honestly don't know how much more I can take.

Debbie

(((((((Debbie))))))))

I've just got to say that I really like your outlook. Way to make lemonade, there! And it sounds like things did/are turning out okay in the long run.

Regarding houses for sale, might anyone be interested in mine? I really need it to sell soon now. There's a post in classifieds, but, Debbie, if you would consider coming to Utah instead of all the way back East, this house would be a steal compared to California prices, and it's got 2.5 acres, so your animals would be fine here. Nice neighbors around too. My parents have a house to sell in Sacramento too so that they can buy my grandmother's house, north of there a bit.

TC,
Rap

I wish I had enough energy to make lemonade right now. I am so exhausted at this point, I am going to hide under my warm blankets & try hard to get rid of the anxiety attacks that keep attacking until I finally get enough energy to try & function again.

Thanks for your kind words,
Debbie

Debbie,

A gold cup for getting your mother's house sold.

I was hoping you were out of houses to sell.

You're an amazing lady!!!

You've earned your right to some rest.

Keep us posted.

Hugs,

EJ

Yep. even when things seem UNreasonABLE. Tuck Tuck have a good rest