Finally making an effort to change

I've been so unhappy for most of my life, probably due to my OCD. Okay, mostly due to my OCD, and my suicidal and self destructive tendencies.

I just learned today that I might need to take a semester off from my last year in high school to get better. I might have to move from Canada to somewhere in America or the UK to find good care.

I think that news kind of made me question myself. Why do I make myself so unhappy? Why do I make my family unhappy with me? Why am I even here?

So from here on, no more bitter/negative/cynical posts. I'm moving on from my dark past. I want to change myself in order to change the people around me, for the better.

I like to give you a huge hug for trying to turn your life around.Its wonderful that you are acknowledging that things need to change. Im now 60 and wish I had of had the courage to do something about my problems when I was as young as you are. I know I wouldve had a much happier life for myself and for my family.Instead ive only recently sort help as I wouldnt acknowledge I had a problem. Part of my OCD is hoarding and my kids hated bringing friends home.So Honey I wish you all the very best and wish to say Im here for you should you ever need to chat with someone who understands. Gai