[desirae]

Tonight has been so frustrating. The days seem to waste away, here and there...no where mostly. My kids sit in front of the T.V for hours mindlessly wasting their funless days away, and I sit here either on the internet, studying, or on the phone. Then when I am not here I am with them in front of the T.V doing nothing.

Depression tends to peek it's bastard head during the winter espeacially holidays for me. It's typical.

I haven't felt guilty for awhile, but now I do all the time. Last Saturday it was beautiful outside. I ask my husband if he would like to HELP me take the kids to the park. At first he refused, then agreed, then after I got them ready refused again. That day was again in front of the T.V.

I'm going to get my daughters legs braces tomorrow at two. I need help with both the babies because the wait can be long. Well, he refuses to help me. He has personal leave at work and will not take it.

I put them to bed, I lay with my son till he sleeps, I wake up with them despite how late I stayed up on the internet or studying, then I am along during the day. This is everyday.

I take them everywhere, alone, by myself.

Their father hasn't put them to bed once their entire lives. He hasn't waken with them since my son was like 4 mo. old, and he has never once taken them both anywhere.

I need help so badly. I am failing due to my frustrations of always doing it own my own. It's a bad excuse...but it's true.

The T.V and I, we should marry and raise our children together.......

[Boopers]

(((((((((((((((((((((((((Desirae))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

This is heartbreaking. I am so sorry that your husband is not a dad. You know the old saying, any man can father a child but it takes a dad to raise them. That saying sounds like it fits with your husband and children.
It sounds like you are mom and dad both to these kids. You should be commended for that. Thank God they have you.
It's a shame because your husband doesn't realize what he is missing out by not participating in raising your children.
I pray that you keep the strength to keep on keepin on and doing the best you can with them.
Sending you lots of hugs and to say how proud I am of you.
Linda

[AlteredState01]

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desirae said: I am failing due to my frustrations of always doing it own my own. It's a bad excuse...but it's true.


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NOT a bad excuse; your frustration is real and understandable, but please never, ever think you are failing your children, especially when you are continuing to forge ahead like you are.

Your husband is the Boob, here. I have known so many couples who experience the same kind of scenario.