[lizzy4521]

I'm not very sure if this is the place to talk about this, and I'm so sorry that this is long, but I haven't been feeling quite good for the past six months. I can't go two days without completely breaking down and wondering if I'm even needed. I feel worthless, and I feel like all I've done is make things worse for others. I don't feel like I have a reason to feel so terrible, so all I can say is that I'm probably incredibly selfish for feeling this way. This past month, I've just gotten worse. It's gotten to a point where I just don't see the point in being here anymore I want to know if something's wrong with me. I want to get help. I've tried talking to a close friend, but I just feel like I've been annoying him a lot with the suicidal kinda talk. I want to go see a doctor, and I want an actual answer as to what's been going on with me. The problem is that I can't tell my parents how I've been feeling. I can't tell them that I don't want to live, you know? I don't know what to do. All I know is that I want to get better. But that doesn't seem like an option anymore

[shabur]

Hi Lizzy
Welcome to PC. I think you will find good support here. I have.

You don't say how old you are so I am assuming you're underage.

I encourage you to talk to your parents. If you are not comfortable telling them everything you could tell them that you have been having a hard time and would like to see a therapist. If they ask you for further explanation hopefully they will understand when you tell them you're not comfortable talking about it or that you don't think you can put words to your feelings.

When I have something I think I might struggle with I write it out.

If you really feel you can't do this, my next suggestion would be to talk to your school counselor or a teacher you feel you can trust. That person can hopefully help get you the help you need.

Hopefully your parents will understand and get you the help you need.

Hi, Lizzy. Are you in school (high school or college)? If so, do they have a student counseling center? Or, is there a teacher whom you trust enough to speak with? Don't wait! Do it on Monday! You and your life are worth it!!

[lizzy4521]

I'm in high school & yes there are guidance counselors at my school! I wanted to talk to a guidance counselor, but I've only talked to mine about school related topics, so I'm kind of scared to talk to her about something like this.

Oh another thing: my birthday is tomorrow, but I'm honestly not excited at all for it. My parents have to work and I can't really celebrate it with friends because it's kinda last minute to ask any of them. Anyway, I feel terrible right now. I've been having suicidal thoughts for the past four hours, and I just want to go get help somehow. I honestly feel like I want to check myself into a hospital just so I could get help and get away from everything

[galileo rebel]

Hey Lizzie, welcome. I went through the same frustration of feeling like you're annoying your friends. I know we can't replace your friends but you can talk to us and feel comfortable because we know how you feel. Hang in there

[shabur]

Hey Lizzy
I think you should go with your gut. If you have been feeling suicidal for the past 4 hours I would suggest going to the hospital and don't leave until you get the help you need.

I was taken to the hospital by an ambulance from my T's office, but I went willingly. Yes, I was hospitalized, but, I got the care I needed.